Fusing

[very-small-box.livejournal.com]

I'm part of a multiple system, and I was wondering about people's successes (or lack thereof) in fusing or integrating with one or more of their bodymates.

I fuse with Angel sometimes, which feels good while it lasts. We're more comfortable in our body as a fused entity then either or us are on our own. But it's not feasible or desirable as a permanent structure.

What have been your experiences, and the experiences of others in your system? What causes them to fuse? What causes the fused form to disintegrate?

-Baki

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[crystalseraph.livejournal.com]

It can and does happen. I think fusing is actually a better term than 'integration' when it happens naturally, because it feels more like fusing than it does somehow 'fitting back together'.

Two people in here fused a while back, and for all that its a bit wobbly sometimes, its good. We aren't planning for any more hijinks along those lines, though, and have had a stable group of three for about a year now.

G.

[coldironkiss.livejournal.com]

We think that Beka, Robin, Eva, and Acanthe were originally one, but split because of emotional abuse in our childhood. (The rest of us seem to be non-trauma-related.)

Beka perceived herself to be about 10. Robin perceived herself to be about 16, 17. The other two saw themselves as adult, with no definite age. We were talking about child headmates with some friends and expressed puzzlement at why this happened. One of the others asked if it could be an abdication of responsibility - whether outside-world responsibility, emotional responsibility, or whatever - and the light went on. We understood not just what their roles were in coping with the abuse, but why they'd developed in the way they did.

Beka, Robin, and Eva agreed that they wanted to merge if it could be done without professional help. Acanthe was still a bit reluctant, wanting to see and experience more of independent life, but agreed to do it if it was the best thing for the system. In maybe a couple of weeks, a new frontrunner switched in - Catherine, who felt herself to be a combination of Beka, Robin, and Eva. That's all it took. That was in late August.

We've been reluctant to assume this'll stick forever, as we've heard that integration usually doesn't work in the long term. It seems too easy. Sometimes it'll be clear that one of the three is shining through, but Cat generally feels like Cat, with identifiable traits from each of the three.

They can live with it, if they separate again, but we're hoping they won't - this seems like a healthy thing for them.

-Val

[very-small-box.livejournal.com]

Were there things that Beka, Robin, and Eva had strong disagreements over before they fused?

That's the only thing that seems to make fusions in our system separate. Angel & Charlie separated after a few weeks of being fused, just because Angel didn't like the way Charlie moved their hips. I think of it as a "dividing line".

If they do separate at a dividing line, perhaps they should come to preconsensus before fusing again.

[coldironkiss.livejournal.com]

Their very methods of dealing with problems were opposed - which may be why it was so easy for them to join. Thank you for the idea; if they do separate, we'll have an idea of what sort of cause to look for.

Other than that one big difference, though, it seemed that none of their strong opinions clashed with any of the others' strong opinions. Which makes me optimistic.

-Rhun

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

I've never merged or fused with anyone here. But there are times when Dalamar and I are co-fronting very closely and are able to switch often at the front so it may appear as though we're merged. Yet we are still very much separate and experiencing a small revolving-door effect.

I don't believe anyone else here in our group has fused with another. I can't really speak for everyone though. Anything is possible. Kalli

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

yeah that too lol :p
LeAnne

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

hmm good question. I don't really know :/ I think that some groups are more able to do that than others. I'm not sure why it happens tho. maybe it's more that people are slightly telepathic or something and can hear each other's thoughts alot and that's why it seems like they're so much a part of each other? I don't know :p
LeAnne

[underlankers.livejournal.com]

We cannot fuse, if we're Imperial.

Can you take two Earthmen and then shake'n'bake 'em till they're a hybrid (in reality, not in comic books)? No? Then how is a Cthol supposed to merge with a Chimpanzee or a Zhemka to merge with a Thlal in our reality? 'Tis madness, that is.

There are telepaths and empaths around, but those people are kept under an extremely tight watch and help facilitate a psionic Big Brother that enables perfect conviction and acquittal rates. And tearing somebody's mind to shreds for the fun of it (as some sociopathic telepaths do before the ZGDAZ bangs on their doors and they end up a smoldering jumble of bones) or giving someone a nervous breakdown from playing havoc with their emotions (as the empathic sociopaths do, before getting gunned down in public by the ZGDAZ) =/= "integration."

And telepathy and empathy and the other abilities are extremely rare, and powerful possessors of those abilities rarer still.

[underlankers.livejournal.com]

Damn it, forgot to sign:

Ravcel^Crew.

fusion

[leadbrocade.livejournal.com]

A couple of years ago I hated the idea of any kind of joining - it seemed demeaning. Fusion is a much better word for what has been happening to us. it has just happened that we all get on much better, are able to work together more easily - dont know why - maybe we just got tired of fighting like cats in a sack! :)

[jjcandm.livejournal.com]

hi slim, not sure I understand how destroying a destructive alter by splitting her into more alters was an act of fusion? Can you explain?

[xiii-the-deathx.livejournal.com]

I am the result of a successful(sort of) fusion....

My soul had in the past split into two and through a lot of effort and help from some of our other headmates I (we?) where able to re-join. There is, however, still a definite fault line though. Sometimes one of the two halves of me will surface in a more pure manner. She'll exhibit her individual characteristics and expect to be called by her own name (separate from my name)Her likes and dislikes vary from mine. Examples would be her fear of water and he extreme dislike of my last girlfriend. These traits are still present in my own person but appear after the fusion more like nagging thoughts in the back of my mind. occasionally I will still hear a thought purely from one side or the other. Usually there is some sort of trigger for one or the other side to become more prevalent. For example anger triggers one of the girls while some of my very old friends trigger the other.
For the most part though both parts function as a whole and I live as me without to many problems.

[jjcandm.livejournal.com]

we are interested in learning more about integration, as we would like to understand as many options as possible, as fully as possible.

Does anyone who has integrated feel that they still have kept all the traits and motivations of the parts? Do you still experience blackouts or missing time if you have before? Is it possible for some parts to fuse and not others? What did it feel like?

I realise some of this has already been answered, and what I read here is very helpful, thanks to those who posted.