riding a high wind

[ex-khailitha846.livejournal.com]

Hi. We just discovered this community and have really enjoyed reading the dialogues so far... so...

Recently We read "The Tao of Physics" and drew an analogy between Our experience of reality and research into quantum physics. In quantum physics, they cannot directly observe the phenomena they are studying. All they can do is create situations where "particles" will react to each other and observe the trails in the "bubble chamber" and decipher what happened from there.

Sometimes so much of this being aware of the "others" sharing my life is like that. They (my parts) are like the most intimate relationships in my life, yet I cannot directly observe them as separate from me. I do not know what they are thinking.

#That one really drove her crazy, when she realized she has no idea what we actually THINK.#

I can only infer their existence by the "trails" they leave in my life. The words they write, the perspectives they overlay on mine when we "co-front", the things they say and do...
Sometimes it is hard to really accept that they are real. That they are really separate and thinking their own thoughts and pursuing their own agendas and I AM NOT AWARE OF ALL THAT. Someone else posted in here the question (roughly paraphrased) "how does it feel to be the voice in the back of someone else's head?"
That really sums it up...the feeling of strangeness at being the stranger in a shared mind.

So many of my girls value their anonymity... their ability to move in and out of "present life" mode without being detected. How important do you think it is to be AWARE of who is doing what, as long as We know what is being done?
Hmmm....

Comments

Re: Regarding terminology

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

You mentioned a difference between inside people that come from splits off a core identity and other people. Please elaborate...

Some multiples originate with a single person who splits off others from a core identity, perhaps due to childhood trauma, perhaps for other reasons. As you say, these split-off selves can become full persons in their own right.

Other multiples, like ourselves, rather than splitting from a central person, never had such a central or core identity, but existed as a community from the beginning of the body's lifetime. We are a gateway system, that is, one whose actual home base is a quite material world in an alternative dimension, and we use this body to interact with the earth world and the here-and-now. Other gateway systems include Shaytar (http://www.bentspoons.com/Shaytar/) and Bravadai (http://www33.brinkster.com/bravadai/). atoa and ladydancerhouse, respectively.

Some systems call or attract people from other dimensions, often (but not always) including environments that have been portrayed, for better or worse, in film, television, books or games. (The process by which this occurs has been called "soulbonding", but it is not always exactly that.) Or they deliberately create people, not always to deal with abuse as in the cliched portrayals, but for any number of reasons; from "I wanted someone to hang out with," to "We needed someone to help out with school."

And... it appears that you have a separate icon for each voice that speaks, yet your user name remains the same. Is that an easy trick to explain?

Certainly. The LJ FAQ explains how to create and upload new user icons. A paid user may have up to fifteen icons; for a bit more money, you can have up to fifty. The named icon is a courtesy described here:

http://www.tanuki.cx/pavilion/policies/pinteract.html

(You can see more of our named icons at
http://www.livejournal.com/allpics.bml?user=ksol1460 )

Re: Regarding terminology

[myorp.livejournal.com]

hmm... i have a question. we originally had a core(or maybe set of cores) identity and our world is largely self-created, but through no planning of ours wound up with gateways to other dimensions "built in" so to speak and have several others in here now who /are/ from other dimensions. would that maybe qualify as a "gateway system"? or is the definition more limited to systems where everyone is from another place?

and i think i need to try to read your website again. i have a hard time deciding where to look first and sometimes get overwhelmed by all the information. malmenel was going to read /all/ of it but he hasn't been out much at all in the last month sadly.

Re: Regarding terminology

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

Sure. That doesn't sound too dissimilar to our situation. Our own subjective world is a place we've created ourselves, but we've had other people gate into the system from other places entirely. I think it's valid to call that a gateway system, or you could call yourselves a 'natural/gateway system' or something to imply it's a combination.

Re: Regarding terminology

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

What would make our website easier to read? We have that list of the different sections on the left-hand side of the page and then you can go to each page.

Where to look first? You might want to check out and/or contribute suggestions to the glossary at
http://www.astraeasweb.net/plural/glossary.html

Re: Regarding terminology

[myorp.livejournal.com]

eheh... i think my difficulty is i am just overwhelmed by the sheer /ammount/ of information and essays and articles and /everything/ and i can never decide where to start. i'll try the glossary first next time though, thanks.

and if i have any suggestions or anything i'll make sure to mention it if i think there's something i think might be done to make it better somehow. ^_^