Pain!

[castledwellers.livejournal.com]

How can we possibly be successful in this life.  It seems everywhere we turn, the deck is stacked against us.  It is increasingly difficult to even want to get out of bed each day.  The pain is so bad that most jut want to go inside and abandon the body until this "problem" has resolved itself. 

We had a "Session" with the family therapist.  A few weeks ago, Veronica and Raymee told her off and basically terminated therapy. When the "parents" found out, they almost lost their minds.  They BEGGED us to re-hire her.  When we agreed, the therapist was reluctant.  She believed that I was agreeing under duress.  Basically that was true, but not so much anymore.  Especially after they BEGGED us to return.  It seems that they feel they need the FT to confront "the brother".  Honestly, not many feel that the confrontation will ever happen.  I don't know how they think they can sit him down, knowing he has a new baby, and tell him they know that he raped and molested us nearly every day for 3 years.  Apparently they need the FT to help transition them to another therapist in C and in MIN to work with him in working on the Abuse issues that he suffered before mentioning the SA.  This is why I think it will NEVER happen.  There are some inside that hope it never happens.  I can't say I blame them.  After all, what good will it do since he will deny it.  

Besides that issue, the FT is now very aware that we didn't feel working on our trauma issues with her was a possibility.  She is far to enmeshed with our family.  The one positive was that she clarified why she down-played the importance of our DID issues.  Apparently she was working on getting the family interactions safe.  That we can understand.  So in this last session, she seemed to listen more to our experience.  She may even begin to cal us "Raymee", which is the name the four fronts chose to go by.  Yet, many of us ar so very wary of her.  We know she doesn't really have an understanding of multiplicity, even though she claims to have treated other DID clients.

Back to the pain, both physical and somatic.  We need to see a dentist.... But we can't.  Not only does it make sense because of the SRA, SA, PA, MA, and EA, but we were abused IN/ON a dentist's chair!!! how can anyone expect us to be able to sit in one of those things willingly.  THe last time we went, the Dr. has us put under.  It cost 700$ just for that.  We have no insurance and no money to put up front, we do have "parents" that would pay for it, but the last time, they said they wouldn't pay to have us put under.  So it is a waiting game... How long can we wait/tolerated this pain until we break down and beg to be put out of our misery.... Any dental pain control suggestions?  Painkillers and topical pain killers have been used.... excessively!

Comments

[castledwellers.livejournal.com]

actually, we are very aware of they type of comm this is, we are not a system that is looking to integrate, we are happy as a community, that's kinda what we thought this group was about. the post was asking for pain relief issues and venting about our family therapy issues. We are HAVE trauma systems, but we have other systems in here that are not trauma based. we know we need to work on those issues so we can be more functioning and do things like go to the dentist, so I am not quite sure what the point of your reply was...

oh and BTW thank you for the group, we are always looking for other groups since not every issue belongs in every group....

[castledwellers.livejournal.com]

If I assumed that you were insinuating that we, as an apparent trauma-based multiple, were looking for some kind of group to work out our trauma's with, then I apologize. It is so very hard to correctly interpret someones tone in posts. All I was saying is that we were not looking for trauma support, we were only looking for pain management suggestions and fielding the "just go to the dentist" answers with the trauma explanation. We are not here for "trauma" support. We do appreciate your concern. If we haven't been around the block as much as we have, that information would be vital. The last response was simply to assure you that we understood the nature of this Comm. From your response, I gathered that it was perhaps worded a bit harshly, for that I also apologize. I do want you to know that the comment about the group lead was sincere, after posting, we joined the group!

We did not intend to come off argumentative... so please, if we did... I am sorry.

[castledwellers.livejournal.com]

Clove oil! Thanks! We were looking for something a bit more natural, the anbusol(sp?) was starting to make us sick!

You know I had that thought the other day... I am by far the least affected by the trigger, I guess it just didn't dawn on me because the four of us who front, never are completely cut off from what's happening outside. I suppose we will have to work on arranging someplace for the others that have that trigger to stay inside...

A trusted person will absolutely be going with us, that much we figured out... it was getting to that point is the problem...

Thanks, all of those suggestions are very helpful...

[rhymer-713.livejournal.com]

At the moment we don't know of any pain control methods. However, we would be more than happy to ask our mother *who has had a lot of dental issues over the years* if she has any ideas and we'll be more than happy to keep our eyes open. If we come up with any remedies we'd be more than happy to reply here. We wish you luck and hope things work out for the better. And if we'd have been abused on/in a dentist's chair we could definitely understand not wanting to go to a dentist. Is there any way you could look into those dentists who specialize in relaxing the patients and don't necessarily use dental chairs at all? Then you wouldn't have to deal with the triggeriness of sitting on the chair.

We'll keep our eyes open for relative links.. But they play relaxing music, encourage you to bring things which make you feel safe etc. etc.
Kenzi of Rhymershouse

[castledwellers.livejournal.com]

Thank you, we would appreciate that. Fortunately, our housemate's co-worker gave her the name of a dentist that gave her a prescription that she was told to take an hour prior and it knocked her out for a long time. We have prescription coverage, so we could pay for that. She also told her that they let her make payments and she didn't have dental insurance. Now all we have to do is work on calling them up... and getting there... and in the chair... But it is a step! Please, keep us updated if you find anything, because if and when we call, we have no idea how long it will take to get an appointment.