multiplicity_archives | Survey and some Statements about me

I guess that will be too long.

1. What was the first online resource/support group/community you discovered relating to multiplicity?
Hm. I found a website about a german system and felt kind of related.

2. For systems that have internal bodies/self-images that are different from the external body's, do any of you have features that do not naturally occur
One of us is a not completly present dragon. We don't know how she looks like, just that she is huge.
Silvester sometimes is a cat. o_O That creeps me out.
Tinka is a dragon, too, we even know exactly how she looks like, but I think the human Body couldn't handle the fact that she is and i'd went crazy with her active, and so she is human most of the Time.

3. What special structural characteristics does your system have, if any? (For instance, is there a hierarchy? Can certain people only front through others?
Do you have certain internal 'jobs'?)
Ankha is the leader. I don't care who of us is active most of the Time, but Ankha would be perfect.
Tinka has to handle fear, Anger and so on.
Silvester is the one who keeps cool.

4. How often in your public life do you pretend to be one person, if ever? Is this a choice or a necessity for your system?
I preted. Just my boyfriend knows partially how I work.
But it's not too hard for me to pretend, because I'm not always serious split.

5. Can anyone in-system force anyone else to hallucinate, particularly while fronting?
Never tried it~ We tend to work together. o.o We can fade the real world and fall into fantasies~ And I can convince myself that something isn't as bad as it really is.

6. On average, is the system composed mainly of people older, younger, or around the same age as the body?
Slightly older.

7. How did you get your individual names and/or system name? (Obviously larger systems won't be able to list all the stories of how everyone got their name,
so... pick your favorites/most interesting? If you were born/created already having a name, that's fine too.)
Sab - Born.
Genesis - Dont know. Was some stupid decision of a younger Body.
Ankha - Was my Nickname, but soon fitted to the Person.
Silvester - I dont KNOW. o.o
Tinka - I had this PErson in me and she wanted a Name. So I took a Names-Book and let her look for a name.

8. How frequently do issues of denial come up in your system, if ever? Does this cause a lot of problems for your system? What do you think is the main
factor that causes this denial for you?
(Part 1) No. Maybe we'll quarrel how to do something, but we work together.
(Part 2) Not really.
(Part 3) We have 2 Shy and logical types in here, and 2 impulsive.

9. What, if any, is something within the multiple community itself that you feel is contributing to society's refusal to see multiplicity as anything other
than a trauma-induced disorder?
I don't know why we exist, and i don't care. I think it's more useful.

~

So.

Some maybe interesting Info's about me.
Most of the Time, the system appears as Voices. I don't know who is the main Controller. I think it's Sab or Ankha. But if the current person finds out that she doesn't liek the situation, OR someone else is nagging at her Way to solve it, I tend do close my eyes and discuss what to do, usually sending another person out.

We have 'shared Memory', ahaha. No, but everyone of us sees / knows, what's going on. Maybe later, when i'm alone and everyone is thinking about the events of the Day, SOmeone is thinking WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO? But she knew it before.
Sometimes, when i'm cuddling with my boyfriend or whatever, im suddenly thinking 'what am I doing here?' but I know that it's alright and that I should not treat him like a stranger.
(Btw, he knows about the Voices. He has some kind of multiplicity insie himself too, but he doesn't now my Grade of Splitness, and I don't know his.)

We have no conflicts in here. At least nothing serious.
We would never start a real serious fight. Although, we had some Girls in here who were completely 'Evil dark etc' and Ankha smashed her with a heavy item, to hold her under control, 'til the body was sure not to accept the Voice.
Tinka was really REALLY crazy as she arrived here and just wanted to kill someone or bang our head against a Wall. And she was Strong. We chained her to a wall until she had calmed down. o_O

Nya, but the everyday-life is quiet. Someone in here (who doesn't admit) likes Nailbiting and regularly crushes my nails. And Silvester tends EVERY time to tell her she's stupid. But that has NO effect. Similar situations on Sloth. Oh noes. XD

We have an odd way of aging. o_O
Ankha exists since ~two years and is now one year older than where she started.
Silvester is one year older too, she seems to age regulary.
Genesis becomes more and more apathetic.
I guess, Sab is younger than she sould be.
Tinka is not long enough here to know something about her.

Thats creepy. o_O

Hm~
If I want to have a Talk with the others~
We have a white room in here. It's just a size-varying white Room With round edges :0 And a door. Outside, there is Sky and Clouds. WTF.
We can cast things here. That rocks. ^_^
The state where we talk to each other is like Imagination. But i don't form them how it would be perfect~ I (Silvester) think, the whole Visual Appearance is just an aid for the mind to handle the situation.

Whatever.
Too much chaos in here to say more interesting stuff. Sudden/Random Changes of the active person tend to disorganize all the stuff.