oh, i have shit-load of questions, and things to say and things to tell - but when i go to put them on paper, or post them or try to email them to my friend - nothing... the page remains blank and i get this cold shiver, and this derealization feeling and all thought ceases and i wind up doing something else... my friend says it's a defence mechanism from them wanting to stay hidden and simply go back to functioning as the shell of "me" and no one the wiser as the what is really going...i told him i'm tired of it and he's been working w/me on that... he listens and "someone" or "someones" seem to talk to him - but i never know what's said, written to him... he says it's a work in progress... and i'm still frustrated...
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Date: 2007-05-01 05:33 am (UTC)nothing...
the page remains blank and i get this cold shiver, and this derealization feeling and all thought ceases and i wind up doing something else...
my friend says it's a defence mechanism from them wanting to stay hidden and simply go back to functioning as the shell of "me" and no one the wiser as the what is really going...i told him i'm tired of it and he's been working w/me on that...
he listens and "someone" or "someones" seem to talk to him - but i never know what's said, written to him...
he says it's a work in progress...
and i'm still frustrated...