Katscratch...

[katullus.livejournal.com]

I guess this would be the first post I've done on here, at least without Katullus. I guess the reason I pushed so hard to get us doing this community thing is because I'm feeling kind of fragile right now... I've barely spoken to anyone since I discovered that there aren't two other beings in here with me, but in fact, six... and there's a reason. Just after I figured that out, my best friend, the only one who I ever could confide in about this, a really good singlet... well, she comitted suicide. God, I sound like I'm just crying out for help or attention or something. *thinks about that* Maybe I am. I don't know. I guess it would just be nice to talk to someone about all these things that make me happy and sad and ecstatic and confused, about life in general, a life that none of my other friends or family are ready for. My own sister tries to change the subject- and every time I try to bring this into open conversation with one of my other friends, they avoid me! Some of them are more tactful than others, some just try to run away, some try to justify or pity me and try to "get me help", but in the end, this most beautiful connection I try to establish with them about a truly wonderful thing always closes so many other connections. I'm sharing this precious secret with them and they are always repulsed. I just want to be able to talk about 80% of what makes up my day-to-day life without feeling so... weird.

Comments

[makil-s.livejournal.com]

I can relate. Most people I've told either avoid it like the plague or avoid me!

Its hard to find good friends. I may friend you guys if that's oke with you? You sound like the sort we'd get along with.

[katullus.livejournal.com]

Sure, anyone can friend us if they want!

*sigh, wince* Without asking Katullus' permission.

Nah, he says it's okay. He'll just block anyone he ends up not liking intensely himself. ;)

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about your friend. :( I know you don't know me but I would listen to you. Hug.

-Butterfly

Connections

[worldnamer.livejournal.com]

It's hard to find someone to talk to about it all; most people aren't okay with multiplicity. I think a large chunk of that is lack of experience. But when you do find someone to talk to, it's such a wonderful thing, that it's hard not to keep trying.

[gryphons.livejournal.com]

you're welcome to message us.. and yeah.. it is .. at least it seems next to impossible to discuss stuff that's normal for us.. without being regarded as something off ripley's or something.

[katullus.livejournal.com]

The weird thing is- Jeez! I'm just so demanding! Heh... It's different when I come online to talk to someone here. It's like, "Select-a-Friend!" *cue robotic voice* "press- one- to- talk- at- makil- s-..." You get what I'm saying? None of what I have to say is any remarkably different to what anybody else here has to say, and as much as you all say you might care or want to help me, it can't mean all THAT much to you. I guess I just want to make the people I love understand me, not make people I don't know who already understand me sit down and listen so I can vent.

I guess my nitpickiness must be half the reason people avoid me IRL... Heh.

[anhedonicjester.livejournal.com]

i completely understand that, though im not a multiple, i have my own "issues?" for lack of a better word that ive tried to get people in my real life to understand and not want to run away
(disclauimer on the word "issues" i dont mean to imply that multiplicity is an "issue" like its being fucked up or something, im more referencing my own stuff which is more along those lines, i guess... i just dont want that word to be offensive, i realized it sounds that way)

ANYWAY, sorry, im a bit manic and wordy. i just wanted to throw out there that i understand how you might be feeling as ive been there, in one respect or another.
i truely whish there was some way i could help, or something, whether or not you believe i mean that whole heartedly is up to you. good luck though, i hope your loved ones are able to come to terms with your reality and no longer react in fear.

[katullus.livejournal.com]

To me, the word "issue" is anything that might create conflict, any reaction of any kind, even positive reactions- as long as it's something you want to talk about, it's an issue. I sure don't find it insulting. Everybody has issues. Thanks for the encouragement.

[shadowedkitsune.livejournal.com]

I'd love to talk to you, I have no one to talk to myself, being a 16 year old male multiple of a 22 year old female body... I've been going through some tough stuff myself....so.... I'll friend you and maybe we can get to talk sometime ^_^

-Mau

[delraith.livejournal.com]

I suppose we got lucky.

Our mom is multiple. It helps us keep our bearings.

Though, if support is what you seek, the people here seem to be very warm to the idea of being helpful.

Similarly though, we are in a similar boat. We don't have much people for which we can ALL say "hi" and interact with.

Just recently, I 'came out' to the 'parent' being's best friend. His reception was a little less than desirable. Apparently I'm just an "Aspect" of Joe.

And just recently as well, I've introduced myself to, well now our friend, Matt. In doing so that friendship is evolving. I know a few women (who strangely enough seem to entertain the idea of multiplicity better, especially the ones around the magical 28 number) but my interactions with them are limited. Partially due to being wary, but as well the fact that they only exist in the internet to us.

And as can tell most people have hard time noticing differing attitudes, and peoples.

Unless there's a label.

Ah yes, we used to mark who was speaking with symbols (+, -, §, etc) but then we got lazy, and when we talk for the sake of someone else, we might do it (plurality, multiplicity, etc, is a new world for us, with all of us trying to be cognitive [all three]).

Now though, most things are feeling superfluous to notate with symbols. As it allows us disguise, and it takes away from what we're doing, talking about, to go back and place said symbols where they ought to be.

I could as well,

Well we could, offer as well, to say 'hello,' and listen should you feel prone, we're curious about this place, this community. And with as wishful as I am prone to be, I'd like to meet a lot of these people face to face, whether the acquaintance small or large.

That and that I love to do things with people, as has been interest to me, if at all possible, to invite my friends splayed across the globe, and known only from the internet, to take them rock climbing with us, shoot pool, go get coffee, anything really...

Boy this comment is getting long, we should hit the post button already.

Aye, aye...

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

We are really sorry about your friend.

It is so hard sometimes, to find people with whom you can really be yourselves and be open about who and what you are. And even when they can accept about the plurality itself, they often can't accept details. Like being a gateway system or having "fictional" people in the group. Or even something that should be as easy to understand as having people who are male when the body is female, etc. "Okay, I can't handle that. That's just too weird." *headdesk*

You can email us, ksol1460 at livejournal. com, or we're ksol1460 on AIM.

[rhymer-713.livejournal.com]

rhymershouse777 at Yahoo is our IM and email if you want to talk. We make a decent ear...Just lately Net's been down.