hi

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

i don't know where or how to begin...
i don't know what this is - i only know that i'm losing time, or rather - have become greatly aware that time that i thought my own - is not...things are being done that i am not fully, consciously aware of...i say things and it's not what i sound like...
a friend told me that it's like riding in the back of a car and i can see where we're going, but i'm not driving...
that's exactly what it feels like...
the other thing?
half of me is in denial, and the other half?
i don't know...

thanks for listening, i have no where else to go...

Comments

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

The important thing is DON'T PANIC. Get to know the other you. If nesicary leave notes (if you can't talk internally).

hi - thanks for commenting

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

DON'T PANIC?!?!?!!!

right...
a bit late for that, don't you think?

i don't know the other mes...and leave notes for whom?
jesus...
this blows goats...

and right now, here at work - i can feel not being here...
i can...
not comfortable at all, let me assure you...

Re: hi - thanks for commenting

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

Don't worry, really.
As someone who spends a lot of time in the back seat, I can say: don't worry.
The only thing panicing will do is make you paniced.
I know what you are going through, don't worry - take things easy and relax. Things will work out fine.
The other yous? Well, I only have one and ... well, erm. Just don't panic.

Try writing a note starting "To whom it may concern"

[cirape.livejournal.com]

Multiplicity is not the only posibility. I say go to a profesional, just to rule out something bad.
If it turns out the OP is multiple, more power to them and THEN we can help.

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

i've been...
right now - i'm just in denial...
lots of stress, things have been quiet, but not as of late...
as of late things seemed to have picked up a bit and stuff is happening...

i don't know how else to explain it...
heh - even my kids know...

[our-menagerie.livejournal.com]

When I first realized I was losing time I spent a lot of time writing in a paper journal. Sometimes the others communicated with me that way, and sometimes it just helped me to see where my own thoughts were going and why.

~sj

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

i know what you are saying, and i see the words- however, very hard to write/journal when one wants to desperately cling to the state of denial...
i can barely focus on the here and now...

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

i'm not familiar w/that individual...

why do you ask?

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

The IP numbers and locations don't match. They are nowhere near one another.

[cross-clan.livejournal.com]

We are still in a state of confusion and flux. trying to put things together. Communication is limited but getting better with time. I just started asking questions on paper and inside my head, like Who are you? Why are you here? Eventually answres started comming in.

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

this has come up a few times before and i handled it to a point then, but now...
well, now it seems even more so and chaotic...
well, for me...
someone else comes in and does laundry (i don't do laundry), and works and such...
things i don't normally do are getting done in ways that isn't me...
losing chunks of time and i'm walking around going,
"but hey guys, i didn't do this cuz i wasn't here"
yeah...
a state of denial alright...

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

when?

sorry - this is really tough...not exactly a day at the beach...
still, i do appreciate you...

[tej-agni.livejournal.com]

Is there family or a close friend you can talk with about this. Sometimes in the really rough situations it's better to have a face-to-face person to talk with than just online. Even if you don't mention all the details, telling someone you're very upset over 'something' and getting support for the immediate stress you're feeling can help. Then perhaps you can be calm enough to relate the actual details with someone online and not feel so panicked. :( Online, we're a bit helpless to do more than just try and guess and relate with typed words only.

your input is incredibly helpful

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

my family/close relations/friends have enough issues w/me being bipolar/cutter - this would really throw them for a loop...
and actually, i am talking w/someone about this...in fact, it was him that prompted me to come here...oh, he's not in this community...i just thought i should look around...
i see my therapist wednesday morning, so i wanted to get some feedback and such from others...
oddly enough - i work in the mental health care services for the county in which i live...

[browncoatrebel.livejournal.com]

First off, take a deep breath.

It's scary, we understand. But for us, the more we panic, the more unmanageable our dissociation gets. Meditation helps me, once I get into it...takes a while when I'm upset, though.

Having someone you can talk to is important. I read that you feel like you can't talk to friends or family. If this is disrupting your life--and it sounds like it is--you might want to look into counseling of some sort. You can teach yourself(s) to be functional.

If you need someone to talk to, I'm browncoatrebel.al-AT-gmail-DOT-com

Sara (and others)

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

does this come and go? i feel pretty calm now, almost sleepy...
i went to the eye doctor and really don't recall driving there, but i recall dancing in the car while driving...
panic?
yeah, that was last night and this morning...
and the whole dissociation thing - oh, in abundance, my friend, in abundance...i haven't meditated in years...
actually, there is a person that i can talk with, but i don't want to burden him all the time...this is a bit heavy, as i am sure you understand...

and thanks for the email...

[rhymer-713.livejournal.com]

::Offers comfort:: Yep. Panicking will only make things worse. dragon_quest_777@yahoo.com is us if you want to talk. We may not have the same circumstances but we make decently good listening ears and can offer advice if you want.

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

i shall keep your email address and you'll be hearing from me...

and i realize that all situations are completely and totally different - that nothing is the same...but still, another shoulder would be grand...

thank you

[forever-alone.livejournal.com]

I still feel like that a lot, especially lately because life has been especially stressful and difficult for me. You can talk to me about it if you want, my e-mail and AIM/yahoo names are on my profile. If not, that's fine too.

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

i've been hearing a lot about the stress factor and this year i feel like job from the bible...
so much has happened in a short amount of time that it's amazing i haven't lost my mind entirely...
and yes - thanks for the email address...
i honestly appreciate that...

[forever-alone.livejournal.com]

p.s. love your username.

[mrshannibal.livejournal.com]

thanks...i changed my name from pinkfloyd63 to this one...
i like this better...