I worked with Iris and used my diary. I was working solely from the MPD/DID model from the literature. Having read Truddi Chase, I assumed that my people all originated in a single mind that divided or gave birth to others; but that even if they had started out that way, they were now persons in their own right.
So I didn't exactly proceed from the usual assumption that multiplicity arises either from dissociation or from the splitting-off of emotional reactions. More like being under stress as a child induces the birth of other minds. My biggest mistake was failing to take into account that one person may have many different moods. Also, by misunderstanding them all to have arisen from my own personal experiences, I tried to catalogue phases of my own life as different persons who I felt I "was" at that time. Anytime someone, me included, behaved a little differently, I would think it might possibly be another person and note them down.
This took a lot of straightening out later. Oh, ghod, we did the lists of names and jobs and everything. You know, like "Faith holds the anger." uhh, no, she just gets pissy. We did the whole "mapping your system" thing, too.
I had no idea about the nature of the gateway back to our world -- except as a vague concept I thought was a metaphor for the kind of creative visualization you're supposed to do in therapy (you know, "visualize a safe place where your alters can meet and talk") until sometime in '99. I still don't claim our world has any kind of objective reality -- I can't, there's no evidence. My subjective experience of it is what changed.
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Date: 2006-10-05 10:08 am (UTC)So I didn't exactly proceed from the usual assumption that multiplicity arises either from dissociation or from the splitting-off of emotional reactions. More like being under stress as a child induces the birth of other minds. My biggest mistake was failing to take into account that one person may have many different moods. Also, by misunderstanding them all to have arisen from my own personal experiences, I tried to catalogue phases of my own life as different persons who I felt I "was" at that time. Anytime someone, me included, behaved a little differently, I would think it might possibly be another person and note them down.
This took a lot of straightening out later. Oh, ghod, we did the lists of names and jobs and everything. You know, like "Faith holds the anger." uhh, no, she just gets pissy. We did the whole "mapping your system" thing, too.
I had no idea about the nature of the gateway back to our world -- except as a vague concept I thought was a metaphor for the kind of creative visualization you're supposed to do in therapy (you know, "visualize a safe place where your alters can meet and talk") until sometime in '99. I still don't claim our world has any kind of objective reality -- I can't, there's no evidence. My subjective experience of it is what changed.