Sometimes she projects this quite strong self image and I do have to check. It never hurts to go "Right... breasts: no... good I'm still biologically MALE 'phew', skirt: no... good, legs: two as per usual that's ok no more no less, any unusual marks or tatoos: no... good, etc..." You know, just in case. She has been known to suddenly front for a couple of seconds. Just long enough to switch underwear or something. She's also gotten quite good at putting out memories that don't quite match up with reality. Pulling tricks like "oops... no it's knickers not boxers ha ha ha" gives her a sence of control, helps her feel less like a passenger I guess. We have talked (her & I) about it and I'm usually ok with her little practacle jokes provided they don't get out of hand. She's cooled off on them recently mainly because I tolerate them and that's taken the fun out of them, which is a pity as she needs some sort of outlet.
I guess I have a fairly strong self image. When I'm projecting a strong self-image and she's 'up' (erm... 'fronting') it bothers her as in "Oh no, I'm an ugly hairy freak male-body" and kind of distresses her, so I try to stay quiet mentally when she's up. Her projecting a self image just confuses me.
I don't know why self-images occour. Why she should perceive reality as different from what it is, or even quite what I mean by me "staying mentally quiet". It's hard to explain.
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Date: 2005-10-01 12:01 pm (UTC)Sometimes she projects this quite strong self image and I do have to check.
It never hurts to go "Right... breasts: no... good I'm still biologically MALE 'phew', skirt: no... good, legs: two as per usual that's ok no more no less, any unusual marks or tatoos: no... good, etc..."
You know, just in case. She has been known to suddenly front for a couple of seconds. Just long enough to switch underwear or something. She's also gotten quite good at putting out memories that don't quite match up with reality. Pulling tricks like "oops... no it's knickers not boxers ha ha ha" gives her a sence of control, helps her feel less like a passenger I guess. We have talked (her & I) about it and I'm usually ok with her little practacle jokes provided they don't get out of hand. She's cooled off on them recently mainly because I tolerate them and that's taken the fun out of them, which is a pity as she needs some sort of outlet.
I guess I have a fairly strong self image. When I'm projecting a strong self-image and she's 'up' (erm... 'fronting') it bothers her as in "Oh no, I'm an ugly hairy freak male-body" and kind of distresses her, so I try to stay quiet mentally when she's up. Her projecting a self image just confuses me.
I don't know why self-images occour. Why she should perceive reality as different from what it is, or even quite what I mean by me "staying mentally quiet". It's hard to explain.