we had a huge deal with this sort of thing when we first started talking about our multiplicity. This was about damn... 8 years ago and was with multiples of a certain mindset, the medical model. We would say how it was for us only to be told we were wrong, that it really wasn't like that but instead another way, their way. It caused us a lot of pain and damage actually, mostly because at the time we were living in a state of having to be like people told us to be, having to change to fit or belong. It is still there at time but not nearly as intense as it was back then. There were a lot of areas we were told we were wrong in, having another world that wasn't created by imagination, not having a host, having the original inhabitant, the one born in this body dead and gone, children that didn't know or use lilspeak, this list goes on and on, each time we were told we were wrong. It is rather amusing now, to think that we even gave credence to people that had no knowledge of our community regulating how it would be.
It is hard sometimes to speak of other people's experience without relating it to my own. That's why I struggle with words sometimes, I don't want to imply that if it is this way for me then it has to be that way for others. To put it basically I don't want to do what happened to me.
The number thing, I remember when it was common that if you had high numbers you were therefore more abused, and more multiple. The sick thing, at least in my mind then was there seemed to be a common theme people wanted more people, they wanted the prize for the highest number and therefore the highest level of abuse. I still get it sometimes when I give out the number within the Shire, the whole, man you must have been really badly abused, or I wasn't as badly abused I only have... certain number. For me multiplicity has only meant that there is more than one person who can take exectutive control of the body. But I even know some that say being able able to take control of the body, be out, front, whatever you want to call it isn't essential for multiplicty, if the other people reside within. So really numbers for us are unimportant, we only know ours because we have a census every few years in Idia for other reasons.
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Date: 2005-08-28 09:33 am (UTC)It is hard sometimes to speak of other people's experience without relating it to my own. That's why I struggle with words sometimes, I don't want to imply that if it is this way for me then it has to be that way for others. To put it basically I don't want to do what happened to me.
The number thing, I remember when it was common that if you had high numbers you were therefore more abused, and more multiple. The sick thing, at least in my mind then was there seemed to be a common theme people wanted more people, they wanted the prize for the highest number and therefore the highest level of abuse. I still get it sometimes when I give out the number within the Shire, the whole, man you must have been really badly abused, or I wasn't as badly abused I only have... certain number. For me multiplicity has only meant that there is more than one person who can take exectutive control of the body. But I even know some that say being able able to take control of the body, be out, front, whatever you want to call it isn't essential for multiplicty, if the other people reside within. So really numbers for us are unimportant, we only know ours because we have a census every few years in Idia for other reasons.