I chose to call myself Mercury for a reason

[mercuryisme.livejournal.com]

Hey, everyone...

From the user info page I thought I'd announce my presence here as a psych student, but I'm not interested in you people as guinea pigs... I have a seriously unorthodox fetish for the "crazies"... schizofrenia, multiples, furries, gender dysphoria... the people who don't belong, who feel out of place in their own skin, who are too much for themselves.

I wish I could live a thousand different lives sometimes, be the virgin and the whore and the child and the adult, the man and the woman. Being bisexual definitely raised some questions in my mind about whether or not I really wanted this female body of mine.

Don't be offended when I say part of me is jealous. But I guess you'd understand about "parts"... wouldn't you?

EDIT: I don't fetishize any of you, I have a tendency to use words offhand, I don't think about any of you or your friends naked in the shower to get my rocks off, I'm young, I'm dumb, I talk a lot, I would never in a million years dare to compare any of you to furries, or try to pretend any of you are anything like me, because that would be damn insulting, etc.

There.

Comments

[effeteifrit.livejournal.com]

In the physical world I wouldn't consider this person to have power over me, at least not currently, because of our age and experience/educational differential*; I'm still about a fifth older than her. However, in the long run, I feel it's likely that she would have more power, not in the least because she's going into the mental health industry. I'm not anti-psychiatry, but I wouldn't want this person treating me.

On this board, I feel that space for multiples has been maintained to an extent, and I feel it's been maintained through dialogue. I feel that if I (and others) didn't say anything, that space would be threatened. This is really one of the few spaces on the 'net where I can come and talk about things pertaining to multiplicity and not get some blank stare.

I don't think I would want the community to be closed, but it's not okay for someone to come into the community and say "hello, I fetishize you". For me, that is not respectful. That's not respectful of who I am as a person, it objectifies me, and if I'm watching, I'm not going to let it slide. (I shouldn't be so quick to pick up that mantle; my heat may be tempered in the near future.)

Power is always temporary, and it has to be maintained. I would not say that this person has more authority than myself, but then I would not say I had more authority than her. If I thought I had more authority than her, I would not have replied when she called me "pissy". However, I interpreted her response as an attempt to wield power over me in my own community ("well, if you don't do what I want [i.e. desire to be my 'friend'], you're a loser anyway"), and I interpreted that to show a lack of respect for who and what I am. Lack of respect can go hand in hand with fetishization. She even stated that a fetish often involved a sense of disgust.

I am *not* convinced that this person has a respect for multiples in general, because if she had it, then what generated her acerbic response? "I'm here, but I don't trust you yet" does not imply "I hate you, get out", but she responded as though that is what I had said.

And I think at this point, I'm done.

--Blaze

*I usually try not to be ageist, but in some cases I just can't ignore someone else's maturity level, and in some cases, that maturity level is pretty near someone's age. I know I'm still in the 'pretty young' phase of 'young adult' at 23; I'm young enough to know that high schoolers are (or try to be) cruel, and old enough to know that I don't know everything.