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[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

okay, so im not sure how this works, but here goes.

i found this community through saturniakitty (sorry, not so good with the l/j tags) on a fake l/j-er community, and reading through this ive become a bit confused as to my own situation.

ive always felt like there are others in my head and/or my body, ever since i was little. ive been told that i talk to someone when there's no one there, but i think that there is someone there or i don't even remember having that conversation. i also go through personality changes- i was diagnosed as bipolar, which seems to be explination enough for family and doctors, but it doesn't quite explain it all for me. ill be talking to someone and ill switch to someone else, sometimes making it a bit more confusing for people who don't know that i do that. there was even a point that i was "flickering" between three main, at which point i withdrew and became anti-social because it was easier. for a while i was explaining it to myself as manifestations of former lives and/or other beings (im pagan, so it fits with my belief system) but even that doesn't quite fit.

is there any chance that i /could/ be a multiple?

im kind of just looking for an explination. it gets difficult for me to deal with changing or flickering, and anything that makes sense might help me cope.

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[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

i can relate to that- there's an entire group of people that knows me as one of my others. while they know my name and such, they only know the personality of my other.

[penguin001.livejournal.com]

Bah, silly Joe, not signing things. Anyways, I saw your username and thought for a second you were tearpixy, a person from the town I came from that was awesome, but didn't know I was multiple (as few do, even though I/we post openly here).

It sounds like to me that you could be multiple. I agree completely with writing letters to yourself, that was what really helped us.

- Joshua

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

heh, yeah.

*nod nod* that's what im thinking too. ya'll are so helpful... if i can reach some conclusions and some solidity i think i can get rid of some problems.

-noelle-

[penguin001.livejournal.com]

Out of curiosity, what sort of problems?

- Joshua

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

let's see... i have an ulcer from stress, skit is totally off the wall odd, aleria likes discord and doesn't get along with "norms", and jack goes comatose if he has to deal with people because he reads emotions really well- in my belief system, he's empathic. so i figure i can maybe control some of that. i hope...

totally o-t, but i love the penguin icon. ^___^!

-noelle-

[penguin001.livejournal.com]

Egh, yeah, having off the walls can be a problem. It's really fun when both Joe and I are switching back and forth, because it can get mad crazy (assuming I'm in a fun mood, and Joe thinks play is a solution for everything). As for norms, who really does get along with them ;-)

As you communicate more, eventually you'll be able to better handle everything. You may not be able to control it, but the entire system will come into better alignment.

Thanks about the icon! A friend made that for me since I respond as the terrorist penguin.

And again, curiosity is killing me, what does your icon mean to you?

- Joshua

okay, i don't always use fun for stuff, i just know that happiness and positive thoughts are more helpful. Negative thoughts and reflections are unfun.

And yes, unfun is a word, because I just said it.

- joe

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

yeah, skit is entertaining if im in the mood... and aleria doesn't like anyone i think. she just uses "norms" as an excuse. she's hostile, and im pretty sure she has blue hair.

yeah, that's what im hoping for.

heh. its a text that i made from the new harry potter book. it's a really funny line from like the first chapter. im not sure what possessed me to bold "hoax" though.

-noelle-

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

In my experience, the best thing to try for isn't so much controlling them, as to achieve some sort of operating system and harmony among yourselves, in which people are expected to control themselves. Ulcers are definitely not-good-- are you getting treatment for that? It was our experience that trying to keep everyone else under wraps and repressed in here resulted in more stress than it was worth, and probably some stress-related symptoms. Once we started to talk with each other and tried to work on sharing time with each other, we got a lot less stressed-- it wasn't that all our problems were instantly solved (we had some issues that had nothing to do with being multiple), but it was definitely easier on us.

A lot of us don't get along well with 'normality' either-- the best we can do is to try to balance our own desires and interests with the level of 'normalcy' and functionality that we need to be able to maintain in the world at large in order for people to see us as responsible and trustworthy.

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

*dies at the amount of comments* O_O

yeah, i/we know what you're saying- harmony would be muchly better than control. some of me/us is a bit of a control freak... and yes, im getting treated for the ulcer. they were a bit suprised, although ive been saying that i bet i have one for a month or so now. (im 15 so im a bit young for it, eh?)
i/we kind of talked last night- i was trying to sleep and not everyone else wanted to. it was a little odd, because ive never tried that approach before.

balance is always good.

thank you to EVERYONE that's been giving me advice.

-noelle-