1) I learned about my multiplicity just over 2 years ago. I was trying to find out why I had such bad problems with memory. I would either not remember something, even right after it happened, or my memories of events would be screwed up (like how I remember having a boyish haircut and hating it throught my childhood yet there are pictures that show I had long hair instead). Anyways, I had gone online and was trying to see if my memory problems had anything to do with borderline personality disorder (which I had been diagnosed with about 2 years prior). What I found was a page about dissociative identity disorder that spoke about memory problems and also said that BPD was a common misdiagnosis for people with DID.
So, I did some more research and everything I read just fit. Not just for me but for my others as well. Before that I could always hear them but learned early on to ignore them. Now I knew what they were and they knew what they were and it was very confusing but made oh so much sense at the same time.
2) I don't know...
3) Ummm...I'm not sure what you're asking because it seems like your question contradicts itself. I mean, there are times when I'm aware of what's going on but know I'm not the one doing it. And there are times where I may not remember being the one doing something but know that it happened or may have some fragmented memories of it. And I think there are times where I'll remember something and I'll only remember it for that moment (like the memory is there one min. and gone the next and I'm left with just an impession of it).
As I said with #1. My memories are very screwed up. And not just mine...this is something that's true for most of those in my internal family.
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Date: 2005-07-13 11:45 pm (UTC)So, I did some more research and everything I read just fit. Not just for me but for my others as well. Before that I could always hear them but learned early on to ignore them. Now I knew what they were and they knew what they were and it was very confusing but made oh so much sense at the same time.
2) I don't know...
3) Ummm...I'm not sure what you're asking because it seems like your question contradicts itself. I mean, there are times when I'm aware of what's going on but know I'm not the one doing it. And there are times where I may not remember being the one doing something but know that it happened or may have some fragmented memories of it. And I think there are times where I'll remember something and I'll only remember it for that moment (like the memory is there one min. and gone the next and I'm left with just an impession of it).
As I said with #1. My memories are very screwed up. And not just mine...this is something that's true for most of those in my internal family.