Yoga and Integration :)

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I realize that I don’t see things in the same way as other people. Some of my thoughts about things might offend others because they misunderstand, though I try to explain things in graceful ways.

Our multiplicity has very little to do with being abused or rejecting parts of ourself. I realize that others are parts of me. That’s how my system identifies. We are split from each other. But we stay multiple for very personal reasons that we aren’t ready to or are incapable of explaining at this time.

When people say that personalities aren’t full people, it makes me giggle inside. In my opinion, all a person really is is what I’ll currently call an ego, a bunch of samskaras, and a body. Samskaras make up a person’s soul. Your ego is what keeps samskaras together and makes it so that your “Self” is aware of all of these particular samskaras. Maybe it’s your ego that splits or dissociates in being plural.

Integration, to me, is similar in some ways to moksha. You can’t just tell a yogi, “Okay… become one with the universe now.” It takes lifetimes, and many lessons, to even become enlightened. Perhaps that is why so many multiple systems can’t integrate. They simply aren’t ready or they never wanted to. Many people aren’t ready or aren’t interested in enlightenment or moksha, and that is okay. It’s the same with a multiple system. It is okay.

In fact, there are master sages and yogis who chose to remain on this earth, even though they could easily move on or “integrate”. The Dali Llama is an example. If you want to stay, then it’s impossible to go because wanting to stay is a samskara that keeps you here. And there’s nothing wrong with it.

If there was something wrong with many people/souls being here, why would they be here? If you don’t want to integrate, then there’s probably a good reason for it. Perhaps one that you can’t explain to yourself or others.

Many people’s goal is enlightenment. In a system, having good communication and functionability and realizing what you are is similar to enlightenment. That is a good goal. You have a choice as to whether to move on from there or even to get to there. Just as you have a choice as to whether to become enlightened. You don’t see Buddhists going around saying, “Become one with the universe or we will lock you up and feed you pills”, do you? However, if it does get to the point where you harm yourself or others because of not being enlightened at all, I’d think they’d do things to defend what they can… but that’s a different point.

I once saw a movie in which a Llama had died, and his soul split into three different bodies. I sometimes wonder if, when we die, our souls will become one, go into different bodies, or even become another, natural multiple again in a new body. I don’t know. I don’t know what will happen in the future, near or far. Maybe we’ll all integrate in this lifetime even. But I think it’s best that we focus on things in the present, like making songs on our phone or working on getting our diploma and degree. Things will work out like they should. (The concept of dharma comes to mind. Heh.)

Sometimes when I hear people say, “You should integrate with your others,” I want to say, “You should too.” But that might make me look even crazier to them than I already do. (:



With Love and Peace,

KittyKat



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