AARGH

[zenboiuke.livejournal.com]

K is putting me through the paces today... -_-;; He feels things VERY strongly, and sometimes it can be physically painful for me. Today instead of receding to make it easier for me, he's maintaining a strong presence towards the front, which can be rather distracting for me. It's... odd to merge at work, because of the changes in our psyche & demeanor >_>;;; I don't want anyone to think I'm high XD

He's taken my hand and he's telling me to calm down ... so I am sitting here trying to keep focused, and not slip into one of my automatic defenses (like compulsive humour) and he's telling me "It's ok... just breathe..." and all of a sudden I look at Jack & go "What the *&%$# is this, Lamaze? o.O;;" D'oh there I go again XD

I don't know why I fight it... it feels so amazingly, indescribably blissful to merge with him...

Do any of you others have experiences like this? o_o

~Kier

Comments

[kangetsuhime.livejournal.com]

Sometimes we blend. It's... nice, and unnerving, all at once.

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Now and then.

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

Merging, or co-running? We often have experiences where two of us will be up front together and be communicating via mental images/thoughts, but we're still separate people; we haven't actually merged into one. If one person is at the front and someone else is very close, their emotions/perceptions/etc can be a strong influence on whoever is actually at the front-- to the point where, yeah, you have to keep a grip on how you present to others so they won't 'think you're high' or anything.

[zenboiuke.livejournal.com]

LOL we do both... often times Jack, or K or even Tyler or Grace will be 'looking over my shoulder' so to speak & putting their two cents in. But with K it's completely different.... we're the only two who ever actually merge into a single, new-but-not-quite entity. We have our theories on this but we're not certain of anything.

~Kier

[garden-keep.livejournal.com]

We have never merged, only co-run. It does get somewhat annoying when Eve berates me for having sucky rolls during the D&D games I play with our friends. Then again, I also get some interesting commentary, like the "you're getting booed from the peanut gallery!" comment I got today. :)

~Janessa