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So, I was directed here by a friend who is a multiple. Now, since hanging out with herand her multiples, I have noticed distinct similarities in some of my previously assumed behaviorisms and her 'sisters'. I have also noticed some wild, raging differences. Now, mind you this is not what I expected at all, and its a little scary to realize that behaviours I had thought were just that- behaviours- until recently have turned out to have personalities, thoughts, voices, and dreams of their own. Hell, I've got names, too. And its like, 'Ok, who's been scrambling my brains together? Because I know this wasn't the case earlier. Or was it?' Now, I wouldn't even be here if something hadn't gone completly nuts. I was bellydancing (like I do in the afternoons now that I have my own place), and suddenly I wasn't me any more. Or rather, someone else was dangin in my body. I swear I was looking through someone else's eyes, listening with someone else's ears, and thinking someone else's thoughts. Its like I was a spectator to my own life. And it rattled me. Hard. Maracas have nothing on me at the moment.

Pardon my odd rambling, this is the result of a rational mind trying to comtemplate seemingly irrational thoughts. Now, I have to try and figure out which thoughts are mine, and which thoughts belong to others, how many there are (if more than one, which I am beginning to suspect), and everything I can about them. If I'm not going nucking futz, that is, and just being paranoid. Any help would be appreciated.