Nobody at the Wheel

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We are just recently out of an odd situation. Anakin was fronting last night, and he started getting really tired around 1 am, so he stepped back, expecting some one else to take over, but nobody did! The body was still awake and could be directed to eat, drink, speak, go to the bathroom, and so on, but there was no consciousness at the front. Usually when we’re in back and tell the front person we want something done, we get a mental sense of who’s up front even when they don’t answer us directly. There was absolutely nothing there. No intelligence, no self-awareness, just emptiness and the body doing as directed. We have had this sense before, but generally only when the body first wakes up in the morning and we haven’t figured out who’s going to be fronting yet. This lasted for about 16 hours, and nobody could get to the front for more than a few minutes. We’re toying with the idea that nobody wanted to front because the body’s been having migraines that weren’t responding to meds, but that’s just a theory. I finally managed to come forward after being requested, but I had to drop the body into a trance-like state to get forward and it was still really difficult.

I don’t know what was going on, but it was creepy.

~ Opal