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Nov. 29th, 2004 04:38 pmHello, I'm new. :) My name's Whitney and, as far as I know, I am a single personality. I have a "morbid" fascination (called morbid by my family) with mental disorders, though I'm not sure to what level I should consider MPD a disorder. But anyway, I'm very curious.
I've got a question...can the main personality be conscious while another personality is active (i.e. watching what's happening as if life was a movie, whether from a body or out of body standpoint)? I have this sometimes and my friends tell me that this could be a sign of MPD or something else. My friends, however, don't know everything. Any replies are appreciated. ^_^
I've got a question...can the main personality be conscious while another personality is active (i.e. watching what's happening as if life was a movie, whether from a body or out of body standpoint)? I have this sometimes and my friends tell me that this could be a sign of MPD or something else. My friends, however, don't know everything. Any replies are appreciated. ^_^
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Date: 2004-11-29 10:10 pm (UTC)Random note- as far as Our system goes, there are no real 'main' people. I have acted as a main fronter, as has Ruby, and Naal in various times... and most of Us really, with a few exceptions. Right now, Ruby likes to be the main operator, because she enjoys college, and I personally could care less about it ;)
-Fihel
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Date: 2004-11-29 10:45 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-29 10:54 pm (UTC)"can the main personality be conscious while another personality is active (i.e. watching what's happening as if life was a movie, whether from a body or out of body standpoint)?"
Sure, we do what all the time.. co-consciousness, and co-presence. At any time, one or more of us may be actively using the body (co-running), while others are sitting back a little ways, observing what's going on and making comments, offering suggestions, etc. Like
It's a mistake to characterize singlets who experience a hidden observer as having "MPD". This is something that happens with a lot of writers and may start in early childhood. Instead of just experiencing life, you experience and observe. It's like, if you were filming a movie (like you said), you were using two cameras simultaneously. Charlotte Bronte talks about this as does Dawn Powell.
I have a hidden observer mechanism that has nothing to do with anybody in my system. It's what lets me stand back and gain perspective on a situation while I am participating in it, quite useful for me as an autistic and as a journalist. Not everyone in my group has that.
I think maybe the idea that multiples "split" may come from the fact that kids might develop a hidden observer, or notice one for the first time, after a traumatic event. Does this make them multiple? Maybe, and maybe not. I think the two things get confused, mostly by doctors.
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Date: 2004-11-29 11:33 pm (UTC)Your friends are being silly. Is there someone else in your head? No? Then you're not multiple.
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Date: 2004-11-29 11:48 pm (UTC)I sort of have a "hidden observer function" such as
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Date: 2004-11-30 12:08 am (UTC)As to what you've described, yes, it's quite possible to still be aware when an alter/personality/identity/whatever is front; however that's not neccessarily what is happening for you. It's quite possible that rather than dissociating yourself, you're dissociating from the world around you. That is the more common reason for the "watching my life on tv" you describe. It is possible that you do have DID, and are not aware of your others; however, most the time when people aren't aware of their DID, they blackout when their others front and have no memory whatsover.
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Date: 2004-11-30 01:16 am (UTC)As for what you describe: if there isn't someone else who's coming up front and running the show while you feel like you're watching, that sounds more like a kind of depersonalisation or derealisation. My view on that is that most of the time it's a result of stress and/or overstimulation, both of which are very easy to pick up on a regular basis in our society. (Won't comment on co-presence since others have already explained it well.)
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Date: 2004-11-30 02:56 am (UTC)~Lu
I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-11-30 03:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-30 03:18 am (UTC)Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-11-30 03:19 am (UTC)And thus, only in America is DId the only absolute official diagnoses I believe. To the best of my knowledge. anywhere else is allowed to label it DId or MPd as they please (or as is appropriate)
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Date: 2004-11-30 04:21 am (UTC)Also in New Zealand DID isn't used, there isn't a lot of information about multiplicity in any form here, but where there is the term MPD is still used.
Shire
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Date: 2004-11-30 04:28 am (UTC)Like others here have said, we don't have a "main personality". We do have a group of people who spend the most time interacting with this world. It is a job a group of people volunteer for every few years. Others come and go as they wish but usually there is one of this ED group that sticks around. There is usually room for anyone to watch what is going on, to act as an observer, either because they feel it is necessary or because they are nosy. There are times though when one person will want privacy, and during those times they are left alone.
The other times when more than one person is present at a given time, for us it has a strange layered quality to it. I am not entirely sure how it works, but we can often see and interact with the other person as if they were outside the body. They look and sound real, and yet at the same time I know that they aren't as solid as someone in the room that isn't part of our community.
Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-11-30 04:37 am (UTC)The professionals still don't admit to more than one "person" sharing a body, just that the "others" who front don't share memories and are different in more than just personality. *shrugs* That's how three or four shrinks explained it to me when the change was taking place and just afterwards.
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Date: 2004-11-30 04:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-30 05:01 am (UTC)It's called depersonalization disorder. I'm MPD/DID as well as depersonalization. I noticed that I depersonalized more when my former boss had me sitting in his office asking me to set myself up where I couldn't prove he'd been sexually harrasing me than switching out. Then again, my others never really came out at work.
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Date: 2004-11-30 10:04 am (UTC)That may not work to your best advantage. Why buy into society's view of you if you don't actually share it?
You may be interested in the ISSD's view of DID here:
http://www.issd.org/indexpage/isdguide.htm
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Date: 2004-11-30 10:15 am (UTC)The problem with the whole "consciousness" routine is that the doctors were assuming that all multiplicity was a disorder of memory -- that it's really all about one person who compartmentalizes sets of memories, which then become the various persons, with amnestic barriers in between. The doctors' main criterion for identifying multiplicity was amnesia between frontrunners. So if two people in the group could communicate, or if more than one of the people knew what had been going on, they termed that co-consciousness because the alternative was, well, unconsciousness.
If co-consciousness is the sharing of all thoughts, emotions and memories, then we don't have it either, and we don't want it.
Daieleh
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Date: 2004-11-30 01:02 pm (UTC)Multiple personality is a whole lot better than Dissociative disorder. A shrink's individual beliefs are personal, and will vary, but when it comes to something as touchy as this subject, ANY progress is a relief, and the step back that was taken by changing to DID in America was frankly terrible.
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Date: 2004-11-30 01:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-30 03:01 pm (UTC)http://www.astraeasweb.net/plural/allison.html
That should clear things up a bit.
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Date: 2004-11-30 09:31 pm (UTC)in our case, being CC means usually that 2 people are sharing the same conciousness space but only one is "in control" of the body & its movements, while the other sits back & watches commening or what not. The other (observer/passive person) can assert control & speak or type online if they wish. It happens alot if we're in IRC.
Co Fronting is where two or more (up to 4 at once but 4 is very hard) all are meshed together so to speak & have simultaneous control of the body. This states rarer for us. We use it to do tasks that require all of our attentions at once.
The last state we use is what we call hm...i guess co-awareness is close but not the word i want which just means anyone whos in the House proper (not oustise of it in the yard or whatever) can peek out & see whats going on at any time they choose. They can be as aware or ignorant of the outside goings-on as they please.
These are just the terms we use (as well as 2 other systems we interact with) that work for Us. They may not work for you & may not apply. But i hope it explains a few things & may even help.
If you have questions on this, ask...tho i'll be gone a week out of town so don't expect a prompt reply.
{J}tatiana
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Date: 2004-11-30 10:15 pm (UTC)Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-11-30 10:21 pm (UTC)Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-11-30 10:32 pm (UTC)I still disagree about MPD vs. DID. I'd much be labeled DID than MPD, though from looking up personality (the complex of characteristics that distinguishes an individual or a nation or group; especially : the totality of an individual's behavioral and emotional characteristics)* and identity (the distinguishing character or personality of an individual)* I'm not sure there's really much of a difference aside from how individuals perceive the two words.
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Date: 2004-11-30 10:40 pm (UTC)Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-11-30 10:49 pm (UTC)Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-11-30 11:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-01 12:50 am (UTC)Thanks for clearing that up for me. ^_^
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Date: 2004-12-01 09:14 am (UTC)Depersonalization is something that everybody (plural, singlet, etc.) gets -- like derealization, it can be caused by illness, medication (Nyquil for instance), sleep deprivation, and a lot of other things, and it is one of those completely ordinary experiences that has been pathologized.
Again, feeling like you are both participating and observing is not depersonalization nor a mental disorder, it is a routine mental function. I know they put stuff like that in the DSM, but they put in bad handwriting and drinking too much coffee, too.
Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-12-01 09:20 am (UTC)Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-12-01 09:23 am (UTC)Re: *this got posted to the wrong reply*
Date: 2004-12-01 09:27 am (UTC)Curiously enough we've heard from some ministerial counselors (!!) who believe there can be more than one soul per body and instead of squishing everyone together they try to help them communicate and get an operating system working. I would have loved to get a full article for the website out of this one guy, but when I answered his email his box was full and I couldn't get a message through to him. Still trying.
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Date: 2004-12-01 09:37 am (UTC)Re: I wouldn't say in denial...
Date: 2004-12-01 09:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-01 03:03 pm (UTC)no subject
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