"The autistic-behaving person, knowing he isn't wanted, departs the front and leaves a neurotypical-behaving person in charge."
*sad nod* That's exactly what happened to Crist-Erui. He didn't ever "depart the front", but he got scared of people and wouldn't show himself any more. He used to go into our parents' room at night sometimes, though, and just stand there watching them sleep - he was so sad.
"Or with an autistically-hardwired brain, the second person just imitates NT behaviour better than the first one"
That would be me. It wsn't a very good imitation, but better than my poor 'brother' could ever have managed; good enough to "pass" at least.
It still makes Kír and me sad and angry to think about, because Crist-Erui is so loving and gentle a person, so full of light, and he's been "shut out" from the world of other people for most of his life. It's still really hard for him to see our parents too, especially our mother - he'll "flicker in" sometimes when I hug her, but she doesn't know he's there, and wouldn't accept him if she did know. He's her child as much as me, but none of her love is for him - basically, he lost his parents when he was five years old.
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Date: 2004-11-18 05:26 pm (UTC)*sad nod* That's exactly what happened to Crist-Erui. He didn't ever "depart the front", but he got scared of people and wouldn't show himself any more. He used to go into our parents' room at night sometimes, though, and just stand there watching them sleep - he was so sad.
"Or with an autistically-hardwired brain, the second person just imitates NT behaviour better than the first one"
That would be me. It wsn't a very good imitation, but better than my poor 'brother' could ever have managed; good enough to "pass" at least.
It still makes Kír and me sad and angry to think about, because Crist-Erui is so loving and gentle a person, so full of light, and he's been "shut out" from the world of other people for most of his life. It's still really hard for him to see our parents too, especially our mother - he'll "flicker in" sometimes when I hug her, but she doesn't know he's there, and wouldn't accept him if she did know. He's her child as much as me, but none of her love is for him - basically, he lost his parents when he was five years old.