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Hey.. this is Ariel posting under Luc's name because I'm just losing it... I dunno. I've been kinda stressed and unstable, and then I just read this book First Person Plural: My Life as a Multiple and it was so much like our experiences, and it got everybody going, wanting out and shit, and the only person around who even really knows about us is my boyfriend, but he's been really unstable and can't even handle his own problems, let alone mine, and I think I'm going crazy. i really do. I'm so afraid that I won't be able to control it and that people will find out... I live with my mom and stepdad, but they don't know about me being multiple, because I try to always just be me when I'm around them, but I'm going crazy... they'll figure me out. I know it. they'll know I'm crazy.. and Nameless wants to cut again.. she wants to see the body bleed.. see herself bleed.. all of us.. .god.