Marijuana Moment (where all was understood)

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I'm pretty stoned at the moment but I'll try to keep this coherent. I had a moment just now where I could understand how to break away two parts of myself, like mitosis of this one central being... I don't know if it would feel more like severing myself in half or burping... it makes me afraid to try it. It's like jumping into a big dark hole.

I'm actually a bit freaked out now... afraid to sleep, dream...

Marijuana is crazy. I need to think about this in a few hours for sure. You have no idea how much these few weeks in this forum have changed how I view myself.. my interior...