I just looked back over your above comments and your recent journal entries. I didn't realize you were only 18.
So before anyone decides to get angry with me... take into consideration that I'm new at this, so don't be harsh. I realize I've got a lot to learn.
I also didn't realize I was being harsh. What I said, it would be good not to take personally, because it wasn't meant personally. Like you don't know me? I don't know you. I've also just ended a relationship which began on the internet in which I feel I was being used (and I have my doubts about said person's boundaries, to say the least), and it's just one in a chain of events which is focussed on in this personality.
...I just realized I'm posting under my alternate handle, which I should have been using in the first place. This is Blaze who posted from bell_silver. bell_silver is supposed to be for our other voices, since I do tend to come on strongly and not to be agreed with by my others, who generally want to disassociate themselves from me (and yes, I realize I'm opening myself to attack, there), even as they depend on me for their protection.
That said, I am still wary because of the fetishization aspects of what you've been talking about. I think the more time you spend in college, the more you'll come to know that not a lot of people (in the US, at least) like being fetishized. This is especially true when it comes down to race. Many people appreciate being appreciated for who they are, not *what* they are.
If someone's going to like me, I would want them to like me based on who I am, not because I'm part of a multiple system, not because I'm in a female body, and not because the body has experienced psychosis. You got that? If not, chop off the latter two phrases: "I would want them to like me based on who I am, not because I'm part of a multiple system." Like, "I would want them to like me based on who I am, not because I'm black." Do you understand now?
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Date: 2005-08-05 04:21 am (UTC)I just looked back over your above comments and your recent journal entries. I didn't realize you were only 18.
So before anyone decides to get angry with me... take into consideration that I'm new at this, so don't be harsh. I realize I've got a lot to learn.
I also didn't realize I was being harsh. What I said, it would be good not to take personally, because it wasn't meant personally. Like you don't know me? I don't know you. I've also just ended a relationship which began on the internet in which I feel I was being used (and I have my doubts about said person's boundaries, to say the least), and it's just one in a chain of events which is focussed on in this personality.
...I just realized I'm posting under my alternate handle, which I should have been using in the first place. This is Blaze who posted from
That said, I am still wary because of the fetishization aspects of what you've been talking about. I think the more time you spend in college, the more you'll come to know that not a lot of people (in the US, at least) like being fetishized. This is especially true when it comes down to race. Many people appreciate being appreciated for who they are, not *what* they are.
If someone's going to like me, I would want them to like me based on who I am, not because I'm part of a multiple system, not because I'm in a female body, and not because the body has experienced psychosis. You got that? If not, chop off the latter two phrases: "I would want them to like me based on who I am, not because I'm part of a multiple system." Like, "I would want them to like me based on who I am, not because I'm black." Do you understand now?