first post to HOH and plural living. intro-but-not-quite. :-D

[oihanen.livejournal.com]

cross-posted to hard_of_hearing, multiplicity, plural_living, synaesthesis, and oihanen.

this covers a broad range of topics, but it is about hearing. plurality and synaesthesia play roles, though, for any who feel they can give advice. it would be much appreciated. we've been noticeably hard of hearing to ourselves since we were 12. we're 17, now, and it's only gotten worse. but depending on who's front, hearing changes. not drastically, but everyone thought we were making it up until a friend pulled us out of traffic we didn't hear behind us. some people still do, though. but who cares. screw them. the best explanation we've got for now is that the problems are "sporadic" without revealing to the physician community that we're batshit crazy. we're normally paranoid about doctors, but since communication and control is better, we're trying to get body glitches fixed while the peace lasts. i've already been to the ob/gyn without clocking her. i feel accomplished.

-beast

( details: may be more plurality-oriented. )

and that about wraps it up. sorry if it seemed like i strayed off topic, but i've got a lot of people to cover and compensate for. hope that wasn't a horrible first post. we've got our first appointment with an audiologist in nashville on the 2nd. wish us luck? i have no idea how to proceed with explaining all of this except for the "sporadic" bit. even then, there's the chance that the dr will say it's just our imagination. until next time..

-eve

Out in the garden there's half of a heaven

[ex-khailitha846.livejournal.com]

Greetings and Salutations:

I have been reading, posting and making comments here for about two weeks now and just wanted to officially introduce myself and my system and say thank you to everyone here.

I am Jessica of the Khailitha system. At present, there are about 30 people (hard to get an exact head count) and another 100 or so fragments in here.

The process of going from being fucking nuts 15 years ago to being a (pretty much) functional system now was a task which, at one point, I had no hope of ever achieving. I remember asking one of my many therapists to find me a functional multiple (that's not what I called it at the time, but it was what I was looking for) so that I could have hope. He said he didn't know of any. And he "specialized" in the treatment of DID. Our eight-year old (Becky) called and fired him shortly after.

We have coped with raising 4 children of the body who We had no memories of giving birth to (they were born to a created personality - a mormon housewife who took charge of the system by force and stayed in charge for 8 years by trying to kill the rest of us and who left, unceremoniously, when the system became self-aware) figuring out how to deal with the babies and the hiders and the cutters and the sex girls and the dark ones (and the dark sex girls who want to cut someone), trying to frame a belief system that included all the inter-dimensional traveling and otherworld entities that were key to healing, and creating some sort of a philosophy that encompassed everyone's reality and right to exist while at the same time ensuring a basic level of integrity when interacting with the outside world. We saw thirteen therapists in 9 years and finally gave up on the clinical view of either the definition or the treatment. Very good call, that.

Whew. And in all this time, I have never met another functional multiple system.

Recently two of my outside kids moved away and started posting on lj as a way to keep in touch. I started communicating with them here, and then started poking around, and then found this community. And it was like.... long sigh.... cool. We are not alone in the universe.

I can't even begin to express the appreciation I have for all of you. I am amazed at the diversity and clarity and caring that shines through so many of the dialogues here. I feel like I'm back on a learning curve of healing and growth - and like for the first time I have a place where I can share and get advice from others who have a similar frame of reference. There's new information to be processed and validation... so much of... yeah... I can so relate.

So, anyway, HI... thank you for being, and hugs.

Jessica etal

Coming out

[plaidwater.livejournal.com]

Hi, I'm Angie. Fourteen, living in a fourteen year old's body with three other girls (Anna, 6-8; Ellen, also fourteen; and Venka, sixteen) a male of unknown age and another being of unknown gender. (That I know of)

I was journalling in P.E. and a friend asked what the picture I was drawing was of, was it me and whatnot and I said 'No, it's Ellen.'

So, of course, he asks who Ellen is.

I avoid his questions (verbal dodgeball, Tom (my counselor) calls it) and he eventually is rotated back in for the rest of the period so I don't have to deal with it.

I'm not really sure when it happened, but I had again sat out of P.E. and was again journalling. This time ... I was with Anna. When I started thinking about what to say, Anna took control and started spilling to him about multiplicity.

He didn't give me much of a reaction, so I figured 'whatever, he's thinking about it, maybe he's forgotten'

So, today, we're talking in P.E. again and I mention Ellen.

He ended up ranting about how I was insane and I finally just screamed at him 'If you'd been through what I've been through, you would have ended up the same way.' and the conversation, or lack therof, ended there.

I just needed to rant and cry at people who would understand ...

*sighs*