2005-06-22

He is not the writer of the group

I am.

Allow me to intoduce myself, my dear friend josh, and of course, tyler.

Josh is a very bright young man who deserves much better than life have given him. He is brilliant, very handsome, and he is just a great all around person. Over the years he developed a social complex, by which, he is unable to talk about himself. He was able to live like this for a time, then he went through the worst trauma a boy in his situation could imagine. He lost his father.

The very moment he heard the tragic news, he fell unconcious, and tyler was born. Tyler was created to block the painful emotions that josh was overwhelmed with. Things were well for a time, but tyler wasn't the most saintly of people. He has no conscience whatsoever. He landed josh in jail a few times, but luck helped out not to permanently lock him up. After the last incident, josh created me.

I am the balance. I am the yin to tylers yang. Tyler is chaos, while I am law. I am blue, tyler is red.

I'm not sure whether I was created, or I found him, but we have a good relationship, and we are happy with each other. I helped josh clean out his mind, and we created a beautiful sactuary there.

Imagine the bluest of skies offset by the greenest of grass, rolling hills and a few pillowy clouds. Imagine the entire horizen covered in beautiful woodland. Sometimes it rains. Sometimes it rains hard. But the sun rises every morning, and the moon watches over us every night.

One hill stands above the rest, and growing on top of this hill is a magnificent yew tree. In the spring, it provides enough fruit to feed a country. In the summer, it casts a comfortable shadow. In the fall, it displays a breataking ensemble of color. And, in the winter, it sheds its dieing branches to be burned in a great fire, which gives a plentiful amount of warmth.

Under this tree, I call my home. This is where josh retires to, when he lets tyler or me take over. This land is beautiful, but there is more. Beyond the "Joshua Tree" (as I like to call it) lies a dark valley where the sun never reaches. At the lowest point of the valley there is a temple. I've never been in the temple, or the valley, but I think they hold joshs worst memorys. Sometimes he walks down there, and he always comes back crying.

Enough of the bad place. Our field is there to give josh hope in this life. And it serves its purpose.

I am the outspoken one of our trio, and I will state my opinion wherever I see fit. I see this community as a way to find others like josh and possibly help them, as I did with him. I like answering questions, so please ask away. Be sure to direct them to me.

Alice, of the moon and stars
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A Question

After seeing lots of reassurance lately on other posts that there's no such thing as a stupid question, I'd like to ask something I've been wondering about for a while.

And yeah, I know that it's addressed in various FAQs, but I have yet to find a definition that I really understood... so I was hoping that maybe someone here could help me find a definition that makes sense to me, so I can stop feeling stupid about it.

What, exactly, is a median, and what is it like to be one?



Thanks in advance to anyone who answers.

not someone else?

I'm beginning to wonder if I am a bit strange.. ok stranger than what I thought I was. I have noticed in places I talk with other multiples not just here, that they often say things about how they feel different all the time, or that they never know who they are going to be. It could just be a language thing,but I also wonder if I am a little strange. For us, no one feels like someone else, there is always a strong sense of self, although at times we can also know that someone has control over one part of the body without actually taking executive control, as in therapy yesterday when our therapist called my grandmother a monster, I or at least the body was smiling but I knew the smile was coming from someone else. I have never felt I have become someone else, but rather for me it is like stepping aside to let someone else past, I can if I chose observe the other person's actions, but I still retain my sense of being me, separate from the other person. The confusion of who we are tends for us to be from outsiders, those that know us, and wonder who is around when we are switching a lot, usually that just results in comments about needing flashing neon signs so they can keep up.

Now I also want to make it clear that I am not saying anyone's choice of how they talk about their multiplicity, or how it is for them is wrong, or anything. It just confuses me a little because I hear similar things for a lot of people who identify as multiple and wonder if somehow we are the strange ones.

Isabella
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History of MPD

Does anyone know of a good site or something that tells the history of MPD? You know, like how far back it goes? Who first discovered it? that type of thing?

Thanks,
BV
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A thought....

Searching for Bible passages looking for anything on multiplicity seems a dauntless task, but the following thought occured to me:

God himself is a multiple. God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit...(plus he has tons of names :P)

And the Bible says we are made in the image of God - which I see as spirit wise, not physically since God does not really have a corpereal body (excepting Jesus walkign on earth)

Since three of our system are christian and the fourth believes in God, just chooses not to follow him, it has been something we have been thinking and praying about a lot.

But if we are made in the image of God, and God is a multiple (ok an all powerful co concious omnipresent multiple, but still :P)....then I suppose the most information I can find will be studying God and how he relates to himself, rather than pickign the Bible to see if I can find any hints or examples.

Perhaps everyone has the potential for multiplicity in some way -

If God is three spirits in one, then would not something made in that image be able to have more than one spirit while yet being whole?


Corda & Jenai
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why do chics love their frills?

Dude, I am not going to a dance dressed in a ballgown ever again!!! Wendy had fun playing dress up but I am not a cross dresser, grrr. And there was a hot blonde guy who danced very well.

It is bad enough I have a chics body, the green ball dress was really NOT helping my mood. I wanted at least a shirt and shorts to change into - next dance I will remember to bring some spare clothes for ME.

Wow, a mood other than boredom. At least it was a change of pace.

That dress must die...




Jecklen

(Corda: We went to a dance today that our sister threw, it was very fun. Wendy was exstatic that she got to pick out the dress - though it turned out to be the only one that fit since we have lost weight. She did not come out much though in the dance as we were followign Matt rather than getting to dance on our own and the songs were not really her style. She liked the lalalalala song.)