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[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

okay, so im not sure how this works, but here goes.

i found this community through saturniakitty (sorry, not so good with the l/j tags) on a fake l/j-er community, and reading through this ive become a bit confused as to my own situation.

ive always felt like there are others in my head and/or my body, ever since i was little. ive been told that i talk to someone when there's no one there, but i think that there is someone there or i don't even remember having that conversation. i also go through personality changes- i was diagnosed as bipolar, which seems to be explination enough for family and doctors, but it doesn't quite explain it all for me. ill be talking to someone and ill switch to someone else, sometimes making it a bit more confusing for people who don't know that i do that. there was even a point that i was "flickering" between three main, at which point i withdrew and became anti-social because it was easier. for a while i was explaining it to myself as manifestations of former lives and/or other beings (im pagan, so it fits with my belief system) but even that doesn't quite fit.

is there any chance that i /could/ be a multiple?

im kind of just looking for an explination. it gets difficult for me to deal with changing or flickering, and anything that makes sense might help me cope.

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[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

sometimes i try to. some of them won't listen to me, and other times when they're out im just observing. it makes it odd because i get the feeling of being trapped. mostly that only happens with aleria, and she's difficult anyways.

[melange-fiesta.livejournal.com]

I would say that multiplicity is definitely a possibility here. I also agree that trying to establish communication might be a good idea. Try speaking words out loud to the others, or writing them a note, or something similar.

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

*nods* yeah. im going to try that, i think. this may be very useful...

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

Who are the others? Do you know them? Our early experience was of feeling that there were other people within and around us, having their own individual preferences and reactions to things. Sometimes they'd 'become us,' which was excusable when we were little as playing pretend and imaginary friends (although every time we tried to make up an imaginary friend, they never quite felt real in the same way the others did), but we had to try to repress it as we got older. I'm not sure how similar this is to your situation; you're the only one(s) who can ultimately determine what you are, but, as others have said, multiplicity is one thing which can account for this. I encourage you to look around the Internet and read up on multiplicity, and see if it sounds like you. The userinfo for this community lists some helpful links.

[penguin001.livejournal.com]

heh, funny story, I was passed off as a pretend friend until we were told we were to old. Josh tried to explain that it was more than a pretend friend at one point, but I don't think he really remembers that, and his mom never got it, so we left everything as it was for a long time.

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

i can relate to that- there's an entire group of people that knows me as one of my others. while they know my name and such, they only know the personality of my other.

[penguin001.livejournal.com]

Bah, silly Joe, not signing things. Anyways, I saw your username and thought for a second you were tearpixy, a person from the town I came from that was awesome, but didn't know I was multiple (as few do, even though I/we post openly here).

It sounds like to me that you could be multiple. I agree completely with writing letters to yourself, that was what really helped us.

- Joshua

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

the main others, as far as i can tell, are two girls (aleria and skit) and a boy (jack) i do know there are more, but i don't know their names. i do know them, in that im aware of them and (some of) their personalities, and their reactions to things, but i don't know a lot about them. a lot of what you've said does make sense. i think im going to do more reading... it seems like it reads right though.

Welcome

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

The only criterion we have ever been able to ascertain for multiplicity is sensing or perceiving other presences besides your own, sometimes using your body or present in it along with yourself. Memory loss, a history of child abuse, and difficulty coping with activities of daily living or interactions with the world-at-large, are not necessary or "required" for multiplicity, although you'll read much literature to the contrary and some multiples do experience these things.

We have never been able to control our changes, but we have a code of conduct for frontrunners so that it's not necessary for a specific person to be at front. We also have good communication.

If you're having a problem with changes, a good practise is to establish better communication with the others so as to coordinate your changes in some way.

You may have other questions, which may possibly be answered here:
http://www.karitas.net/blackbirds/layman/
http://www.dreamshore.net/amorpha/faq.html
http://www.astraeasweb.net/plural/faq.shtml

Re: Welcome

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

thank you for the welcome.

that sounds familiar to my situation, along with the difficulty in coping with interactions with the world at large- ive always been a private person and large groups scare me quite a bit (i had a panic attack in chinatown in new york when i was there).

i def. can't control my changes. ^^ that, i think, is what makes it the hardest. but if i can communicate, that would make it easier.

thank you for those links- ill be looking at them for sure.

[eridanusus.livejournal.com]

Was it fake_ljers and was it a post about me? If so, haha I rock. (I know I was featured on there, purely for being openly multiple. I find it terribly amusing.)

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

heh, it was that community, but i don't think it was you this time?

btw, your icon is really interesting.

[eridanusus.livejournal.com]

Another one, eh? I heard they were tryin to out all open multiples as fakers, haha. Welcome to the intarwebs.

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

heh. yeah. that's slightly frustrating. ive been called a faker because ive been hospitalised twice, given at least 3 different diagnoses, and misc. other problems, and i talk about them. that means im a lying fake, apparently. ^^

[saturniakitty.livejournal.com]

Aww, I feel special.

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

*pat pat* special is good, yeah? ^_^

and i <3 your icon...

[submissives.livejournal.com]

welcome! from the "fakers" hehe guess im done being mad now cuz i find it mildly amusing that they have nothing better do with their time than pick on innocent people. We hope you find what you are looking for here.
~shawna of submissives/sweetssystem

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

whee! welcomes are fun. it's a good thing you're done being mad- they're so not worth it. four letter words.

i hope i find what im looking for as well. ^^

btw- <3 the icon majorly!!! *has much love for HP text icons*

-noelle-

[blindgod.livejournal.com]

Hmm I like the idea of trying to write a note with hopes someone may respond. Hope it goes well. Hugs

[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

wooo! welcome

im a faker. i pretend to have multiple personalities to get attention, (but one of these other people i share a brain with really has it. he never talks about it, thats how i know.)
:/

candy

[elenbarathi.livejournal.com]

LOL, yeah, same here. Crist-Erui's the only one of us who's real; Kír and I are just figments of his imagination.

(To be honest, all my life I've wondered from time to time if that might really be true. But even if it is, I don't see that it matters.)

[changelyng14.livejournal.com]

we all had a debate one day, about who's imagination we are all figments of. we took a vote and decided we're all external delusions of Bill the Cat. (except for me, im more of a pigment, really)

candy

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

hehe, thanky for the welcome.

oh yeah, totally. i so fake flickering between personalities as well. ^_^

whee!

-skit-

i'm a faker

[(Anonymous)]

thank you ...that was very funny...I guess it helps the more we have a sense of humor!!