riding a high wind

[ex-khailitha846.livejournal.com]

Hi. We just discovered this community and have really enjoyed reading the dialogues so far... so...

Recently We read "The Tao of Physics" and drew an analogy between Our experience of reality and research into quantum physics. In quantum physics, they cannot directly observe the phenomena they are studying. All they can do is create situations where "particles" will react to each other and observe the trails in the "bubble chamber" and decipher what happened from there.

Sometimes so much of this being aware of the "others" sharing my life is like that. They (my parts) are like the most intimate relationships in my life, yet I cannot directly observe them as separate from me. I do not know what they are thinking.

#That one really drove her crazy, when she realized she has no idea what we actually THINK.#

I can only infer their existence by the "trails" they leave in my life. The words they write, the perspectives they overlay on mine when we "co-front", the things they say and do...
Sometimes it is hard to really accept that they are real. That they are really separate and thinking their own thoughts and pursuing their own agendas and I AM NOT AWARE OF ALL THAT. Someone else posted in here the question (roughly paraphrased) "how does it feel to be the voice in the back of someone else's head?"
That really sums it up...the feeling of strangeness at being the stranger in a shared mind.

So many of my girls value their anonymity... their ability to move in and out of "present life" mode without being detected. How important do you think it is to be AWARE of who is doing what, as long as We know what is being done?
Hmmm....

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[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

They (my parts) are like the most intimate relationships in my life, yet I cannot directly observe them as separate from me. I do not know what they are thinking.

Maybe they are not parts of you, then, as you've had some indication that they exist more independently than that.

We're not always aware of who is doing what -- as long as what needs to be done gets done. That's the important part. Bill paying, attending classes, etc.

[cheshire-house.livejournal.com]

The way i look at things here, as long as I can remain functioning, life is good. I can support myself, so if someone else wants to have a social night out and leave me "at home"...happiness is a goal. :)

~cheshire