hey there

[pyoska.livejournal.com]

So, I was directed here by a friend who is a multiple. Now, since hanging out with herand her multiples, I have noticed distinct similarities in some of my previously assumed behaviorisms and her 'sisters'. I have also noticed some wild, raging differences. Now, mind you this is not what I expected at all, and its a little scary to realize that behaviours I had thought were just that- behaviours- until recently have turned out to have personalities, thoughts, voices, and dreams of their own. Hell, I've got names, too. And its like, 'Ok, who's been scrambling my brains together? Because I know this wasn't the case earlier. Or was it?' Now, I wouldn't even be here if something hadn't gone completly nuts. I was bellydancing (like I do in the afternoons now that I have my own place), and suddenly I wasn't me any more. Or rather, someone else was dangin in my body. I swear I was looking through someone else's eyes, listening with someone else's ears, and thinking someone else's thoughts. Its like I was a spectator to my own life. And it rattled me. Hard. Maracas have nothing on me at the moment.

Pardon my odd rambling, this is the result of a rational mind trying to comtemplate seemingly irrational thoughts. Now, I have to try and figure out which thoughts are mine, and which thoughts belong to others, how many there are (if more than one, which I am beginning to suspect), and everything I can about them. If I'm not going nucking futz, that is, and just being paranoid. Any help would be appreciated.

Comments

[rhymer-713.livejournal.com]

Hmmmm. Nucking futz...Absolutely not. Sounds like some one knocked you out of front. Or that's how I'd take it. We'd suggest you get a notebook and pen and start carrying it around in your purse or car or wherever you can get to it easily. And then we'd start writing down anything we found out. The links on the community info page are very good ones. Also, a nice idea might be to just sit down with a notebook and your favorite music and just look away from the page and write and not look at what you're writing for a few minutes. If it helps any, we've had the experience of seeing through others' eyes and hearing through others' ears. I think the term for that is "copresence" If we can be of any help at all, please don't hesitate to ask. Oh BTW, we love your username and belly-dancing rocks...But we can't do it.
Lori of Rhymershouse Collective

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Do you feel or sense the presences of other persons? The dance experience might be a clue but you need more to go on than just conflicting emotions.

[elusivedreamers.livejournal.com]

Like I told my psych, whether or not multiple is 'true' for me (which i know it is), treating it as such makes me life immensely easier, 'cause it just makes more sense realizing that the conflicting thoughts and reactions going on in my head aren't just insanity.

So if you wanna, give folks inside space to journal or to draw or whatever. See who comes out. They might name themselves or present as they feel like it.

And, yanno, it seems to me that multiples often gravitate towards one another online especially and become friends. Maybe they can tell when someone else is like them? I dunno.

~the riders of the magic bus

[sightless-light.livejournal.com]

Well, after several lengthy discussions with other multiples and a few days of heavy pondering, we have come to the conclusion that we are indeed multiple (our other journal- actually, its Heather's, the rest of us use this one- is nityinepu, in case we were confusing anyone.) Thanks to all of you who offered suggestions and helpful tips, we appreciate it greatly.

Thanks again!

Heather, Shardae, Ceri, Maari, and others- The SightlessLight System