Part of a system I am

[dark-musashi.livejournal.com]

Well.. hi there. I'm new to the community. I've been multiple for a long time, I've known about it for 3 years, and it has been only 15 days I can put a word on what I DO ACTUALLY have. MPD or DID doesn't sound too good when you know the definition of the disorders.
There's only someone else in my system. Same gender ( both of us are girls in a girl body, that helps), about same age, same specie, same tastes, but different behaviour and different thinking. Her name is Jessica. You can use my username to call me.
I've read about multiplicity, but I still have some questions.

First: what is a trigger?
Second: you've noticed I don't speak first person plural, that's because I am the only one "fronting" 99,9% of the time, and also because I'm aware of myself and of the other one, while she's not really( she discovered not so long ago she wasn't alone in this body, while I had known for a long time she was here)... you do the maths: she's still a bit freaked out. Has this ever happened to you?
Third( the last one for today, I promise): we don't like each other too much( but I can't imagine living without her, as she's kinda living through my actings). Are you "friend" with everyone in your system, or does this kind of thing happens?


There's more, but I don't feel like asking about the rest now.
I'm greeting everyone from everyone's system! Alas, I don't think you should expect a comment from Jessica.

Comments

[sethrenn.livejournal.com]

The word 'trigger' used to specifically be used to mean something that evoked memories/flashbacks of traumatic events-- say, if someone was wearing the same kind of aftershave as someone who attacked you. It seems to have entered a broader use in recovery and self-injury communities, to mean anything that evokes a negative emotion. (This seems to be based on a premise that all negative feelings are the result of unresolved past issues or traumas.)

It is certainly possible to not know there are others in your body. In fact that's the situation described in some of the 'MPD/DID literature,' although usually it's the 'host' or main fronter who supposedly knew nothing about the others.

Most of our life we have seen each other as friends and allies, but we've had some tensions in here resulting from the fact that when we first started to communicate with each other again (after years of suppressed communication because we were afraid of 'going crazy'), the 'main' fronter (at the time) became something of a dictator without realising it, controlling others in ways they resented.