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multiplicity_archives2005-10-01 02:12 am
annabellelaw.livejournal.com) wrote in multiplicity_archives2005-10-01 02:12 am
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Physical disparity.
To give background. I'm having trouble sleeping recently (nothing to do with being multiple, I just am) an I'm online to a friend who knows about me...
Annabelle says:
Oh, odd moment.
Annabelle says:
That's an odd sensation.
************** says:
What is?
Annabelle says:
Disparity between the perception of my body and what it is.
************** says:
You were seeing curvy brunette you?
Annabelle says:
Sometimes I look down expecting to see one set of clothes, but I'm wearing boy clothes (not even clothes I own, but I know what they look and feel like) but as soon as I look at something else I feel the clothes back. Of course I know that they are not there, but it's kind of ... I don't know.
Annabelle says:
Just got the same thing with my body.
Annabelle says:
I'm sitting here with my legs wrapped around the legs of the chair and that means that my knees are apart, and... not to be to indelicate but *blush* well... you know. Not just that. My top is half-open (a flease) and I swaer that if I look down I'll be bra-less and D-cup, yet I know I'm not.
Annabelle says:
Same with my hair. I know it's not long and pulled into a pony-tail, but it feels as if I could reach up & touch it.
Annabelle says:
It's odd.
Annabelle says:
Oh, odd moment.
Annabelle says:
That's an odd sensation.
************** says:
What is?
Annabelle says:
Disparity between the perception of my body and what it is.
************** says:
You were seeing curvy brunette you?
Annabelle says:
Sometimes I look down expecting to see one set of clothes, but I'm wearing boy clothes (not even clothes I own, but I know what they look and feel like) but as soon as I look at something else I feel the clothes back. Of course I know that they are not there, but it's kind of ... I don't know.
Annabelle says:
Just got the same thing with my body.
Annabelle says:
I'm sitting here with my legs wrapped around the legs of the chair and that means that my knees are apart, and... not to be to indelicate but *blush* well... you know. Not just that. My top is half-open (a flease) and I swaer that if I look down I'll be bra-less and D-cup, yet I know I'm not.
Annabelle says:
Same with my hair. I know it's not long and pulled into a pony-tail, but it feels as if I could reach up & touch it.
Annabelle says:
It's odd.
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I think it makes sense that the 'false' self-images occur. each person (usually, at least) has a body they identify with the most, like annabelle being a brunette woman as opposed to being male. If it is believed that the brain/the soul/whatever is the 'only' way some people exist as their personal self-image as opposed to the physical body, it would mean that their perception of self-image is constantly being overridden, or even actually being sensed in an inner world (which Annabelle tells me is not her case). That could mean that, even if they do begin to recieve stimuli that says otherwise from the physical body, this stimulation is ignored and they continue to percieve themselves as they 'know' they are, even if they are in a different body for a time.