Physical disparity.

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To give background. I'm having trouble sleeping recently (nothing to do with being multiple, I just am) an I'm online to a friend who knows about me...

Annabelle says:
Oh, odd moment.

Annabelle says:
That's an odd sensation.

************** says:
What is?

Annabelle says:
Disparity between the perception of my body and what it is.

************** says:
You were seeing curvy brunette you?

Annabelle says:
Sometimes I look down expecting to see one set of clothes, but I'm wearing boy clothes (not even clothes I own, but I know what they look and feel like) but as soon as I look at something else I feel the clothes back. Of course I know that they are not there, but it's kind of ... I don't know.

Annabelle says:
Just got the same thing with my body.

Annabelle says:
I'm sitting here with my legs wrapped around the legs of the chair and that means that my knees are apart, and... not to be to indelicate but *blush* well... you know. Not just that. My top is half-open (a flease) and I swaer that if I look down I'll be bra-less and D-cup, yet I know I'm not.

Annabelle says:
Same with my hair. I know it's not long and pulled into a pony-tail, but it feels as if I could reach up & touch it.

Annabelle says:
It's odd.

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I don't have an Inner World. I'm not really interested in one either, the outer-world is enough for me to handle :) . When I'm not 'fronting' I'm usually staring over the shoulder of Ash (the person who fronts most often out of the 2 of us) or in the background. Sometimes I'm 'asleep'... which is not real sleep, it's like floating somewhere dark & peaceful & warm deep inside. When one of us is asleep we tend not to remember what the other person has done, or end up with second-hand memories (sometimes false memories... I've worked out how to do that when I want to keep something private).

But no... no inner world.