Physical disparity.

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

To give background. I'm having trouble sleeping recently (nothing to do with being multiple, I just am) an I'm online to a friend who knows about me...

Annabelle says:
Oh, odd moment.

Annabelle says:
That's an odd sensation.

************** says:
What is?

Annabelle says:
Disparity between the perception of my body and what it is.

************** says:
You were seeing curvy brunette you?

Annabelle says:
Sometimes I look down expecting to see one set of clothes, but I'm wearing boy clothes (not even clothes I own, but I know what they look and feel like) but as soon as I look at something else I feel the clothes back. Of course I know that they are not there, but it's kind of ... I don't know.

Annabelle says:
Just got the same thing with my body.

Annabelle says:
I'm sitting here with my legs wrapped around the legs of the chair and that means that my knees are apart, and... not to be to indelicate but *blush* well... you know. Not just that. My top is half-open (a flease) and I swaer that if I look down I'll be bra-less and D-cup, yet I know I'm not.

Annabelle says:
Same with my hair. I know it's not long and pulled into a pony-tail, but it feels as if I could reach up & touch it.

Annabelle says:
It's odd.

Comments

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

I front often, but rarely for long. I'd like to front for longer. I'm working on that, but usually Ash fronts because it's more practicle for him to do so (his gender matches the bodys sex)

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

Oops... do I adapt to the discrepencies? Yes & no. Usually after a bit I go "Oh, right... flat chested, male body (yuk)" and then the feeling passes, sometimes not & it's a continual suprise to find I'm not physically matching my self-image. It's nothing that needs adapting to as it dosn't prove a problem.

The best way to deal with it is to get dressed up (see my LJ pic as opposed to Ash's) so my physicality matches (as close as physics and biology allow) my self-image