Physical disparity.

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

To give background. I'm having trouble sleeping recently (nothing to do with being multiple, I just am) an I'm online to a friend who knows about me...

Annabelle says:
Oh, odd moment.

Annabelle says:
That's an odd sensation.

************** says:
What is?

Annabelle says:
Disparity between the perception of my body and what it is.

************** says:
You were seeing curvy brunette you?

Annabelle says:
Sometimes I look down expecting to see one set of clothes, but I'm wearing boy clothes (not even clothes I own, but I know what they look and feel like) but as soon as I look at something else I feel the clothes back. Of course I know that they are not there, but it's kind of ... I don't know.

Annabelle says:
Just got the same thing with my body.

Annabelle says:
I'm sitting here with my legs wrapped around the legs of the chair and that means that my knees are apart, and... not to be to indelicate but *blush* well... you know. Not just that. My top is half-open (a flease) and I swaer that if I look down I'll be bra-less and D-cup, yet I know I'm not.

Annabelle says:
Same with my hair. I know it's not long and pulled into a pony-tail, but it feels as if I could reach up & touch it.

Annabelle says:
It's odd.

Comments

[melange-fiesta.livejournal.com]

You know... there are some things that multiples do that singlets just don't do. They can actually LEAVE the front. LEAVE it, not just picture other things and get the IMPRESSION that they're leaving it.

Also, I never feel like I am wearing something different than I really am. It seems like multiples have two existences -- one in the body and one out of it. And they percieve both as physical reality, so one can carry over to the other. But that has never, ever happened to me. Actually, I'd be scared if that ever happened to me.

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

It's not scary.
You just look down & go "Oh, right, t-shirt not blouse... right, oops".

I've found myself flicking back hair that's not there or putting something into a pocket that's not there.

It's no big deal, it dosn't cause any problems... it's just interesting & I was wondering if it was common.

[bekkle.livejournal.com]

how often do you front? do you ever adapt to the discrepancies after an amount of time?

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

I front often, but rarely for long. I'd like to front for longer. I'm working on that, but usually Ash fronts because it's more practicle for him to do so (his gender matches the bodys sex)

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

Oops... do I adapt to the discrepencies? Yes & no. Usually after a bit I go "Oh, right... flat chested, male body (yuk)" and then the feeling passes, sometimes not & it's a continual suprise to find I'm not physically matching my self-image. It's nothing that needs adapting to as it dosn't prove a problem.

The best way to deal with it is to get dressed up (see my LJ pic as opposed to Ash's) so my physicality matches (as close as physics and biology allow) my self-image

[bekkle.livejournal.com]

i like to equate being in an 'inner world' as lucid dreaming (dreaming while being aware of it, and being able to interact with/manipulate your surroundings).. except, in contrast to dreaming, inner worlds are stable and populated with actual, stable people.

being in a different 'reality' while not being in one's physical, this-world body.

i'm jealous of those with inner worlds. hahaha

[annabellelaw.livejournal.com]

I don't have an Inner World. I'm not really interested in one either, the outer-world is enough for me to handle :) . When I'm not 'fronting' I'm usually staring over the shoulder of Ash (the person who fronts most often out of the 2 of us) or in the background. Sometimes I'm 'asleep'... which is not real sleep, it's like floating somewhere dark & peaceful & warm deep inside. When one of us is asleep we tend not to remember what the other person has done, or end up with second-hand memories (sometimes false memories... I've worked out how to do that when I want to keep something private).

But no... no inner world.

[saturniakitty.livejournal.com]

Heh, I'm jealous too. I want one ;_; (Or rather, one that I can enter...)

[ksol1460.livejournal.com]

Singlets do that too. Read Lovecraft.

[melange-fiesta.livejournal.com]

Isn't that a fictional book? Anything can happen in fiction.

[bekkle.livejournal.com]

quite a few singlets have been known to have inner worlds. There's quite a list of authors which I can't remember right now, but i know one of them was Emily Dickinson.

I don't see why singlets can't develop an inner world (or be born with one, most likely in a singlet's case) if multiple people can!