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multiplicity_archives2004-02-12 12:11 am
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riding a high wind
Hi. We just discovered this community and have really enjoyed reading the dialogues so far... so...
Recently We read "The Tao of Physics" and drew an analogy between Our experience of reality and research into quantum physics. In quantum physics, they cannot directly observe the phenomena they are studying. All they can do is create situations where "particles" will react to each other and observe the trails in the "bubble chamber" and decipher what happened from there.
Sometimes so much of this being aware of the "others" sharing my life is like that. They (my parts) are like the most intimate relationships in my life, yet I cannot directly observe them as separate from me. I do not know what they are thinking.
#That one really drove her crazy, when she realized she has no idea what we actually THINK.#
I can only infer their existence by the "trails" they leave in my life. The words they write, the perspectives they overlay on mine when we "co-front", the things they say and do...
Sometimes it is hard to really accept that they are real. That they are really separate and thinking their own thoughts and pursuing their own agendas and I AM NOT AWARE OF ALL THAT. Someone else posted in here the question (roughly paraphrased) "how does it feel to be the voice in the back of someone else's head?"
That really sums it up...the feeling of strangeness at being the stranger in a shared mind.
So many of my girls value their anonymity... their ability to move in and out of "present life" mode without being detected. How important do you think it is to be AWARE of who is doing what, as long as We know what is being done?
Hmmm....
Recently We read "The Tao of Physics" and drew an analogy between Our experience of reality and research into quantum physics. In quantum physics, they cannot directly observe the phenomena they are studying. All they can do is create situations where "particles" will react to each other and observe the trails in the "bubble chamber" and decipher what happened from there.
Sometimes so much of this being aware of the "others" sharing my life is like that. They (my parts) are like the most intimate relationships in my life, yet I cannot directly observe them as separate from me. I do not know what they are thinking.
#That one really drove her crazy, when she realized she has no idea what we actually THINK.#
I can only infer their existence by the "trails" they leave in my life. The words they write, the perspectives they overlay on mine when we "co-front", the things they say and do...
Sometimes it is hard to really accept that they are real. That they are really separate and thinking their own thoughts and pursuing their own agendas and I AM NOT AWARE OF ALL THAT. Someone else posted in here the question (roughly paraphrased) "how does it feel to be the voice in the back of someone else's head?"
That really sums it up...the feeling of strangeness at being the stranger in a shared mind.
So many of my girls value their anonymity... their ability to move in and out of "present life" mode without being detected. How important do you think it is to be AWARE of who is doing what, as long as We know what is being done?
Hmmm....
Re: Regarding terminology
Hey, just a word from us. The way we run, is that Ruth is the main front most of the time, but Amariyah and Anachronis post sometimes.
We feel that Ruth and Amariyah have always been in this system. Amariyah hasn't often been the active fronter for any long period of time, but she has always been around, for as long as memory stretches back. Ruth wasn't aware of her for a long time, not consciously(we think this was a protective set-up, to avoid persecution at home or school for 'unusual' behaviour), but when Amariyah evidenced to her, she was able to remember and connect many incidences of Marie being there and helping her. Marie isn't a split, but a seperate being that has been there since the beginningtime.
We haven't had the experiences of 'losing time' that many do. Any co-running or co-fronting that happens, Ruth generally still controls motor functions, but Marie or Ana will be relaying their wishes for the body to her, so there's a miniscule lag on reactions.
We're not sure when Ana came to us, as she is mostly amnesiac of her previous life. She's pretty quiet, but when she wishes to talk, she will often 'nudge' Ruth to write her opinions down. The few times she has co-fronted, she has felt the body way too 'big' for her, compared to what she had before.
There are others here, but they rarely talk or come close to the front.