There is a lot of mixing that goes on, but there are also ground rules. The liquid nature of my mind means I rarely know who is an influence and to what degree, because we're not seperate like those with D.I.D. are. We share memories, experiences, we always know what the body is seeing and sensing through our own perspective, even when we're not influencing the whole.
It's almost like we're The Founders from Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, when they're all melted together on their homeworld in The Great Link. Different individuals can have more influence at various times, but we all melt together.
However... there IS some order. Tristan is the omni-personality, the one in ultimate control. Sometimes he seems a bit slow simply because he's trying to decide what words the collective wishes to speak. The Undercurrents are thus because Tristan makes it so. His basic nature being good, he largely suppresses the ones that aren't. He wants to heal them, but also doesn't want them to be in control. Alexander has been his greatest challenge, because he is Tristan's link to the Undercurrents, it seems, and is also apparently their link to the outside world. And yet Alexander is ultimately an ally of the side of good... helping give Tristan strength and self-control, which Alexander usually has in abundance. Internally, and online, not so much. Or he didn't, anyway. That is changing.
Ultimately, though, it's kind of like a combo between a Democracy and a Monarchy. Tristan was not elected leader, but ultimately is, and would be re-elected if there were ever an election held. Though he deeply values the input of all the rest of us... the rest of himself.
The way Tristan views things, people with D.I.D. tend to be divided, but s/he is multiplied (http://fayanora.23ae.com/BOS/FABLES/Of_That_Which_Multiplied.html).
Trust me, Fii-Maik is NOT your typical "you are but a clever animal" type. Most of those types at least recognize that something is different about humans. Fii-Maik sees no difference at all between a human and a goat... or a human and a termite. The fact that humans build cities? Meaningless: termites do the same thing. Science? Dolphins and chimpanzees could be said to have science, too. Philosophy? Who says animals don't have that. Art? So humans have spare time from the struggle of survival to make pretty designs in materials. Love? Fii-Maik would understand the concept in abstract, but would not know it experientially. He would certainly never lower himself to feeling something so base, so primal. To Fii-Maik, who is not human, watching humans go about life is akin to a seventeenth century scientist watching termites: he considers them to be nothing more than machines with just enough awareness of self to want to survive, made by some higher power... and considering himself to have been appointed by that higher power to be lord and master over all those insignificant creatures. That is why I have only let Fii-Maik speak once, and once only. Speaking directly to him, you get the overwhelming sense of being completely without worth or value except as an object, a rat in a maze. That scientist who did cruel experiments on baby monkeys (like forcing them to be raised by wire mothers, which was the kindest of his experiments) would have found a kindred spirit in the Nothingness race... and they would have done to him the same kind of things he did to baby animals without a second thought. And without the purpose being to disprove their notions about humans, as his experiments were to disprove the notion that animals don't know love. Compared to them, he was a nice guy. Speaking with Fii-Maik, I think even serial killers would be scared of him.
And no, I am not letting him speak again. Shao'Kehn had an Aspect of Herself She was once ashamed of (http://fayanora.23ae.com/BOS/FABLES/Of_That_Which_Is_Savage.html)... and Fii-Maik doesn't shame me, but he terrifies me.
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It's almost like we're The Founders from Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, when they're all melted together on their homeworld in The Great Link. Different individuals can have more influence at various times, but we all melt together.
However... there IS some order. Tristan is the omni-personality, the one in ultimate control. Sometimes he seems a bit slow simply because he's trying to decide what words the collective wishes to speak.
The Undercurrents are thus because Tristan makes it so. His basic nature being good, he largely suppresses the ones that aren't. He wants to heal them, but also doesn't want them to be in control. Alexander has been his greatest challenge, because he is Tristan's link to the Undercurrents, it seems, and is also apparently their link to the outside world. And yet Alexander is ultimately an ally of the side of good... helping give Tristan strength and self-control, which Alexander usually has in abundance. Internally, and online, not so much. Or he didn't, anyway. That is changing.
Ultimately, though, it's kind of like a combo between a Democracy and a Monarchy. Tristan was not elected leader, but ultimately is, and would be re-elected if there were ever an election held. Though he deeply values the input of all the rest of us... the rest of himself.
The way Tristan views things, people with D.I.D. tend to be divided, but s/he is multiplied (http://fayanora.23ae.com/BOS/FABLES/Of_That_Which_Multiplied.html).
Trust me, Fii-Maik is NOT your typical "you are but a clever animal" type. Most of those types at least recognize that something is different about humans. Fii-Maik sees no difference at all between a human and a goat... or a human and a termite. The fact that humans build cities? Meaningless: termites do the same thing. Science? Dolphins and chimpanzees could be said to have science, too. Philosophy? Who says animals don't have that. Art? So humans have spare time from the struggle of survival to make pretty designs in materials. Love? Fii-Maik would understand the concept in abstract, but would not know it experientially. He would certainly never lower himself to feeling something so base, so primal. To Fii-Maik, who is not human, watching humans go about life is akin to a seventeenth century scientist watching termites: he considers them to be nothing more than machines with just enough awareness of self to want to survive, made by some higher power... and considering himself to have been appointed by that higher power to be lord and master over all those insignificant creatures. That is why I have only let Fii-Maik speak once, and once only. Speaking directly to him, you get the overwhelming sense of being completely without worth or value except as an object, a rat in a maze. That scientist who did cruel experiments on baby monkeys (like forcing them to be raised by wire mothers, which was the kindest of his experiments) would have found a kindred spirit in the Nothingness race... and they would have done to him the same kind of things he did to baby animals without a second thought. And without the purpose being to disprove their notions about humans, as his experiments were to disprove the notion that animals don't know love. Compared to them, he was a nice guy.
Speaking with Fii-Maik, I think even serial killers would be scared of him.
And no, I am not letting him speak again. Shao'Kehn had an Aspect of Herself She was once ashamed of (http://fayanora.23ae.com/BOS/FABLES/Of_That_Which_Is_Savage.html)... and Fii-Maik doesn't shame me, but he terrifies me.