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It seems that we function even more different than other multiples here than we originally thought, as we have not been able to give any feedback to other posts recently. Take the matter of relationships for example, which have been taken into discussion over the last couple of days in several posts. We have never seen it as possible to have a close relationship, as we are too close together to accept certain tastes in genders. Once we tried to come to a solution by voting, but that left us in the wrong kind of physical form ourselves! So we have remained asexual, as that was the best way to keep everyone in control. Perhaps we can't involve ourselves because of our way of existing as one united mind, but is there none of you who have decided to refrain from using their physical form intimately?

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Well if it works for you, that's what's important. :-)

I did want to pick up on something you said in the comments above - that it wouldn't be fair if some people can have relationships while others don't. I can see your solution but for us we have found that accepting that things aren't fair is really important - not everyone can have everything everyone else has, all the time. What we try to do is make things ok for everyone but what "ok" is is different for each person. To me, multiplicity is inherently unfair.

Well, there's always been a sense of perfectionism about ourselves, so we guess we try to achieve a level of harmony which we cannot find outside of our mind. The only negative part we feel is that many of us have been forced to give up much of their individuality for us to be able to share our physical form at the same time. That would be the only unfair part of ourselves, as some had a really hard time adapting to existing as one shared consiousness. Hmm, we guess this method of merging ourselves once was an attempt to become "sane", as we had no idea that we actually were naturally multiple. But with time it's grown into a sense of diplomacy between ourselves, as we can react rather quickly to situations by deciding as one mind. To explain how our "diplomacy" functions on a deeper basis would take a lot of words, so we'll leave it at that.
It works for us, as said before.

That's really interesting. We have gotten more cooperative and share more time, etc., but our individuality is something we tend to fiercely defend. We also believe that part of respecting our shared space is to use our body to experience all kinds of things like the sun on our face etc. etc. - that it was intended as a source of connection and pleasure, as well as something we are responsible to care for. So that's how we negotiate the physical things - does it respect us? does it respect the body?

It is really neat to hear how other ways work too. :)

We remember another part of how we joined together as a mind. As individuals, we never had anyone of us who were interested in dealing with reality. We saw it as an obstacle, nothing more. So when our physical form had to do something in reality, the one forced to controlling it just used it remotely, making it seem more like a doll than a person. We were silent, as we couldn't be social because of lack of anyone actually being up front. Alone, each of us had very weak self-confidences in reality, and dared not to use our body to anything else than simple activities. Our identities were unrefined, and as none had found out how to use our body socially, our personalities was too blurry to put in a physical form. So we found that we had to join together to be able to shape an outwards-personality to train ourselves with. It turned out differently, as the personality we evolved was no only a face outwards, but a blank paper which we now had found out how to show different aspects of ourselves through.
But we continue to be a bit "allergic" to strong real emaotions, as they tend to shake our inner balance. We maintain a shared mind while in this world, but when left alone we split. Sometimes it takes a while to relax ourselves after concentration as a whole, but we've grown used to it. Although there was a split a few days ago which took eight hours of silence. That sucked, as it left little time for us to actually rest apart at all.

That's hard. Not-experiencing emotion takes a lot of energy, in my admittedly limited experience with it.

That's why we split. When apart, in our imagination, we have no need to be careful. Then we show our emotions, but they rarely need to surface through our body.

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