Your reply is provoking many thoughts. But none of them answer your question. I know this: my sense of heart makes me feel good, and my sense of mind makes me feel bad. I struggle with my sense of mind, a tug of war, but my sense of heart is warm, and secure, and joyous. Integration somehow seems to be all sense of mind, which is contrary to what I think my essence is. I don't know how they can coexist. So the only someone pressuring me is myself, my sense of mind. I think it's what is necessary to be better. So, I expect you to confound me with another question I can't answer, but end up answering anyway. : ) Thank you.