ext_10381 ([identity profile] nematoddity.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] multiplicity_archives 2005-08-10 10:40 pm (UTC)

I suppose theres a chance they could all be inner voices that take on the personalities of these characters, but who the hell gives a damn? If they're happy and we're happy, believing they are who they claim to be, then whats the problem?

Yeah. I know you weren't writing to me, but being my judgemental self, I contributed to the problem...so I'm claiming my section of it.

I think, regardless of the chaos that surrounds me, my mind really wants a nice, tidy little explanation for things, neatly labeled boxes to put on neatly labeled shelves to store such ideas within. And life, much as I'd want it to be different, is not like that. It frustrates a large part of me.

Also, to be honest, much of my fiction--and I hope, some day, publishable fiction--centers around a character I would swear--and think, truthfully so--that I created, start to finish. Yet one night, several years back, my partner spent some several hours talking with her, when she took over the body. Fictional character. Walking around interacting with the world. Still can't cope with that.

And maybe that's the real reason I want to bundle everything up and dismiss it as crazy talk. Because I will go until the day I die not calling that character a 'soulbond'...but she has manifested, or fronted, or whatever the term is, and that gives her some weight, some reality. And I just don't want to deal with that.

So...for whatever that's worth...there it is. And I apologize for my part of the "stepping on".

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