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[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

okay, so im not sure how this works, but here goes.

i found this community through saturniakitty (sorry, not so good with the l/j tags) on a fake l/j-er community, and reading through this ive become a bit confused as to my own situation.

ive always felt like there are others in my head and/or my body, ever since i was little. ive been told that i talk to someone when there's no one there, but i think that there is someone there or i don't even remember having that conversation. i also go through personality changes- i was diagnosed as bipolar, which seems to be explination enough for family and doctors, but it doesn't quite explain it all for me. ill be talking to someone and ill switch to someone else, sometimes making it a bit more confusing for people who don't know that i do that. there was even a point that i was "flickering" between three main, at which point i withdrew and became anti-social because it was easier. for a while i was explaining it to myself as manifestations of former lives and/or other beings (im pagan, so it fits with my belief system) but even that doesn't quite fit.

is there any chance that i /could/ be a multiple?

im kind of just looking for an explination. it gets difficult for me to deal with changing or flickering, and anything that makes sense might help me cope.

Comments

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

That's exactly like telling a person who admits to suicidal ideation that if they were serious they'd just do it, not talk about it.

sadly, my dad said that to me once. i had been hospitalised twice, was finally off of my meds, and was suicidal again. i said that, and that's what he came up with. i think i threw things at him.

[elenbarathi.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. That's a cruel thing to hear from anyone, but worst to hear it from your own parent.

Someone I loved once said it to me, many years ago, and I thought it made sense. Thus I spent nine days in the Intensive Care Ward, and it would've been the morgue instead if my mother hadn't had one of her 'psychic flashes' and come home hours earlier than she was supposed to.

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

oh, im super-sorry about that. that person is sucky mcsuck. but at least your mum saved you. ^_^

-skit-

[elenbarathi.livejournal.com]

*smiles* Yeah, my mom rules. And that person was... severely screwed-up, more so even than me at the time. Anyway, it was long ago.

[terrenepixy.livejournal.com]

that's good stuff then- im hoping you're doing better now.