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okay, so im not sure how this works, but here goes.

i found this community through saturniakitty (sorry, not so good with the l/j tags) on a fake l/j-er community, and reading through this ive become a bit confused as to my own situation.

ive always felt like there are others in my head and/or my body, ever since i was little. ive been told that i talk to someone when there's no one there, but i think that there is someone there or i don't even remember having that conversation. i also go through personality changes- i was diagnosed as bipolar, which seems to be explination enough for family and doctors, but it doesn't quite explain it all for me. ill be talking to someone and ill switch to someone else, sometimes making it a bit more confusing for people who don't know that i do that. there was even a point that i was "flickering" between three main, at which point i withdrew and became anti-social because it was easier. for a while i was explaining it to myself as manifestations of former lives and/or other beings (im pagan, so it fits with my belief system) but even that doesn't quite fit.

is there any chance that i /could/ be a multiple?

im kind of just looking for an explination. it gets difficult for me to deal with changing or flickering, and anything that makes sense might help me cope.

[identity profile] sethrenn.livejournal.com 2005-08-04 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
In my experience, the best thing to try for isn't so much controlling them, as to achieve some sort of operating system and harmony among yourselves, in which people are expected to control themselves. Ulcers are definitely not-good-- are you getting treatment for that? It was our experience that trying to keep everyone else under wraps and repressed in here resulted in more stress than it was worth, and probably some stress-related symptoms. Once we started to talk with each other and tried to work on sharing time with each other, we got a lot less stressed-- it wasn't that all our problems were instantly solved (we had some issues that had nothing to do with being multiple), but it was definitely easier on us.

A lot of us don't get along well with 'normality' either-- the best we can do is to try to balance our own desires and interests with the level of 'normalcy' and functionality that we need to be able to maintain in the world at large in order for people to see us as responsible and trustworthy.