It's possible that it's my brain being weird and not someone else in my system. i really don't know. no one else in my system has complained that someone is doing this to them. I also used to narrate my life a little bit. As a teenager I'd avoid doing things because they would be "anti-climatic". When I saw the Truman Show as a teenager I was sure there were hidden cameras everywhere for a while. I've always called this voice "the narrator" because that's what they do: narrate.

It might just be me. I've been noticing the "not quite real" feeling a lot today, while I was out walking having a cigarette everything felt...staged. ficticious. story book like. The sounds of the outside, the sunlight. felt like i was watching it instead of a part of it. it might be related to that.

I had some orange juice earlier and made myself focus on the temperature and the taste and the liquidy feeling. it seemed a better grounding tool than cutting (which i haven't done in ages.) i'm just driving myself nuts right now, I guess.