In all honesty, I'm in much the same position you are. I'm almost 20, and I live with my parents during the summer. They don't know about my multiplicity.
Sometimes, I just want to let it all go, leave my diaries out, run screaming through the house, admit myself to a hospital, and let my parents worry about it while I'm safely away from them. But then, there's my future--everything I've worked for up to this point. It would be dumb just to throw it away.
If you're falling over the edge, the only thing I can suggest is to not think too much. Often getting lost in our little realities is what makes it worse. Just as people need to take breaks from each other, I often have to take breaks from the others inside.
I still don't know how to deal with giving catharsis to the self-mutilators. I, too, don't think a red marker would work for me, as I often don't cut to bleed, but to hurt.
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Sometimes, I just want to let it all go, leave my diaries out, run screaming through the house, admit myself to a hospital, and let my parents worry about it while I'm safely away from them. But then, there's my future--everything I've worked for up to this point. It would be dumb just to throw it away.
If you're falling over the edge, the only thing I can suggest is to not think too much. Often getting lost in our little realities is what makes it worse. Just as people need to take breaks from each other, I often have to take breaks from the others inside.
I still don't know how to deal with giving catharsis to the self-mutilators. I, too, don't think a red marker would work for me, as I often don't cut to bleed, but to hurt.